Esti

i see life and the world differently from most people. i despise mainstream, it's controls people, it doesnt help people to be their true selves because they are coping some else. i dont like the american dream because it has the pattern where everyone works hard to get rich and get a good family and then retire. the husband and/or wife is always away from home while the children are with a nanny. the american dream cant at that there is to life. my whole entire family has been programmed from the start to accomplishing this dream. i have watch my dad struggling over many years to get this dream and he has failed. i ask him why are you doing this, and he said because everyone is doing this. but this is not his true dream. i think the american dream causes crime and divorce. i came to realize that i dont need a big house or a fancy car to feel like i accomplish something. then again i feel like it's not my place to tell someone how to live life.... i mean that the american dream has been programmed into our society since the 20's.... then again i have a tough time finding myself, but it has nothing to do with the mainstream, it's more internal. i feel like all of humanity is missing something big and important but we all cant figure it out, we are all blind. i now i feel stupid for saying all of this, but that how i feel, i feel like we are all missing something important, the feeling is in my gut.

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