In my head I don't think it will hurt.
And when I pinch my skin, it doesn't hurt.
But I know if I were to separate flesh
from muscle and muscle from bone it would
hurt so terribly bad. I know. I have been told.
I have previous experience. But I just can't
remember the pain, I can't feel it when I
think about it the way I can emotional pain so
I just want to tear a little bit, just to remind
myself. Just to be sure.