soulseeker
Permanent Fixture
- MBTI
- INFJ
hi
this is like a question/thought/idea/i don't know if it applies to most of us here or only me
so.. i have noticed for years that i would have a lot of friends.. like really a lot when i first meet a group/class then i would eventually find the people who become closer to me than others but i still have that friendship with other people.. then after maybe a few months, i feel that those close friends don't like me. it's like they stay away from me. they talk to me but i really feel they don't want me.. i feel so bad because it's very hard to think and even accept that every time people would get to know me better, that's when they abandon me.. can't they just not be close to me so that i would feel less hurt?
and i feel that no matter what happens it's like i'm the odd one out
i don't really know if others notice but i do know that most people don't notice me being like that
and i don't think i'm a loner.. i mean i do have many friends but i don't have those real close friends..
why is it that i'm only asking for one even just one person who could be a real real friend to me (one who will be there for me and those things) and i don't even have that ONE person who cares for me like a lot (even relatives).. then it's so unfair how other people have groups of them..
am i bad or what?
this is like a question/thought/idea/i don't know if it applies to most of us here or only me
so.. i have noticed for years that i would have a lot of friends.. like really a lot when i first meet a group/class then i would eventually find the people who become closer to me than others but i still have that friendship with other people.. then after maybe a few months, i feel that those close friends don't like me. it's like they stay away from me. they talk to me but i really feel they don't want me.. i feel so bad because it's very hard to think and even accept that every time people would get to know me better, that's when they abandon me.. can't they just not be close to me so that i would feel less hurt?
and i feel that no matter what happens it's like i'm the odd one out
i don't really know if others notice but i do know that most people don't notice me being like that
and i don't think i'm a loner.. i mean i do have many friends but i don't have those real close friends..
why is it that i'm only asking for one even just one person who could be a real real friend to me (one who will be there for me and those things) and i don't even have that ONE person who cares for me like a lot (even relatives).. then it's so unfair how other people have groups of them..
am i bad or what?