Paradox
Newbie
- MBTI
- INFJ
- Enneagram
- 4w5
I'm still a newly-discovered INFJ.
It's been a revelation. What a month! Insane. Just insane.
I've been using Fe, A LOT. Learning how to use it. Learning how dangerous, beautiful, instrumental, and powerful it is.
I've been using Ni. Trusting it. It's really mystical, but I suppose for us, it's just... how our minds are. The depths of unfathomability.
The past few days been full of positivity, energy, creativity, joy, and an emotional rollercoaster. But it has been amazing, in so many ways.
Yet, for some reason, for the last two days my muscles are tense and I can't seem to sleep well. I'm feeling positive, happy (I think?). My energy levels are through the roof. Why are the muscles in my stomach tied to knots? I am feeling these tensions PHYSICALLY. Not mentally, LITERALLY.
Is this too much Fe? Underusing Ti? Ni-Ti loop (can't be it, I've done that before and this feels different)? Am I going crazy? Do I just need to have sex or cuddle? Do I need to revert to my cold, rational fortress? Do I need to stay way from people, from the internet, for a few days? Should I meditate? Physical activity? Or mental activity?
I've never experienced this paradoxical juxtaposition of mental and physical ailments... both good and bad.
What the fuck is this, and HOW DO I GET RID OF IT?
It's been a revelation. What a month! Insane. Just insane.
I've been using Fe, A LOT. Learning how to use it. Learning how dangerous, beautiful, instrumental, and powerful it is.
I've been using Ni. Trusting it. It's really mystical, but I suppose for us, it's just... how our minds are. The depths of unfathomability.
The past few days been full of positivity, energy, creativity, joy, and an emotional rollercoaster. But it has been amazing, in so many ways.
Yet, for some reason, for the last two days my muscles are tense and I can't seem to sleep well. I'm feeling positive, happy (I think?). My energy levels are through the roof. Why are the muscles in my stomach tied to knots? I am feeling these tensions PHYSICALLY. Not mentally, LITERALLY.
Is this too much Fe? Underusing Ti? Ni-Ti loop (can't be it, I've done that before and this feels different)? Am I going crazy? Do I just need to have sex or cuddle? Do I need to revert to my cold, rational fortress? Do I need to stay way from people, from the internet, for a few days? Should I meditate? Physical activity? Or mental activity?
I've never experienced this paradoxical juxtaposition of mental and physical ailments... both good and bad.
What the fuck is this, and HOW DO I GET RID OF IT?