Saram
Regular Poster
- MBTI
- INFJ
- Enneagram
- 9/4
I've been haunted by someone over the last few years. He has forced me to see him (his inner self), by means of staring, and mirroring my movements, and facial expressions, with no time delay, with extreme accuracy. He seems to almost exaggurate his emotions, so that they are clearly visible to me. To me, somehow, but not to others, it's like trying to ignore a dancing ape in church. When I'm present, he behaves as though nothing else exists. He is a virtual stranger to me, as far as what conversations typically aquaint you with, as he is luke warm when I talk to him (which I originally initiated, only in attempts to defuse his intensity, but later, he initiated). Details of his lifestyle, and such, are a mystery to me, as most of this communication has been physical. He is a cop. It has been steadily intensifying. It hit a point where when with my husband! who is so sweetly loving to me, completely, without warning, caught my eye, then stared me so deeply in the eyes I felt like he had just disclosed his naked soul with entirety and in an instant somehow stripped any barrier I had around mine. I was floored, breathless, baffled. I started to well up with tears. Then he smiled at me with the deepest caress. After that, the next few encounters were once again, either sterile, or completely forthcoming in body language only. Smiling widely, blushing. But quick to end the interaction. And then, he just stopped coming to get his kids where I waited. Confronting me once since, circling me like a wolf, talking about something mundane, then when I thought he was gone, he snuck up behind me, standing in my intimate space, lurking like a shadow monster. I was paralysed with uncertainty. It's been 3 months. I don't trust this situation. I don't understand it. I feel like he is monitoring me somehow (I did catch him taking my plate numbers down). Is there a storm brewing, or can I let my apprehension go? I'm a woman of intense integrity. What is this? I feel sick. Can I reasure myself that he will let me be?