Angela

Yes…the cards say the same for the “happy” question very vaguely sometimes.
And that could be for reasons we don’t know…perhaps it would influence your even meeting THAT particular person that you really fall in love with.
It’s up to you if you want a reading or not…it will take me a little bit, I have a few things to do before I read so just let me know?

Well…it’s hard for me to speculate on your situation and how you two go together or not because I really don’t know.
I can read your cards myself if you like…I have several decks depending on what you want to know.

Have to run!!

TTYL!

Well, we know that particles can become entangled with one another…perhaps these entanglements happened billions of years ago when whatever sun exploded and created the elements we are all made of…maybe, they happen with a glance of the eye, or just being in close-proximity.
I believe that this accounts for “feelings” or the premonitory type that one might have about someone they are close to or have been close to.
That’s just on a quantum physics-type explanation…of course there is all kind of literature on the web about twin flames and such.

It’s a really good book…I highly recommend it…the Author is a Psychiatrist who also just happens to be friends with the Dalai Lama and their subsequent conversations about the nature of happiness and if it is indeed something that can be fully attained or if it is even worthwhile to strive for it.
Very insightful anyhow.
I’m not into the self-help books either…that is probably the closest to one I have read haha.

Oh…I was in some form of counseling from a very small age…both from terrible night terrors (OOBEs), and the fact that I didn’t do any of the work in school.
Funny thing was…I aced all their fucking tests.
So they sent me to UCLA to see some big shot guy.
Was just talking about this with Kgal…my Mom says she doesn’t have the report anymore, I would have liked to have read that.
Well, you can’t just “choose” to be happy in spite of what all the motivational posters say.
Have you read “The Art of Happiness”?

Same here…I used to really care how other people judged me…..I could give a flying eff now.
Now it’s the self-judging that is the saboteur of more than one good thing.
I was born hyper-critcal of myself, I swear this to you…I cannot ever remember not picking myself apart…even when I was so little I couldn’t explain that to my Mom (both Parents were super-supportive btw) I would just cry and tell her I hated myself.
It’s a lifetime worth of work I think.

Or is it all that shit about “ the journey was the destination all along”?
Ugh.

If only it were so easy…stupid river.
All it’s stupid rocks, and stupid whirlpools, and stupid other people trying to hang onto you pulling you under.
Stupid river.
All I’m saying is it better fucking take me somewhere worth the trip in the end.

Yeah…the best you can really do is to try and point your feet in the right direction as we float down the river…at least then you can see the rocks and can try and move…it sure beats fighting the current.

Here…I found the theme song for the day!
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Oh god…the discontent of my life hahahaha.
I’ll let you know when I figure that one out…I’m not mocking you, I’m teasing myself in actuality.
I’m sorry that it turned out that way…but just because the Tarot said he was “the man you needed” doesn’t mean he was the man you needed to learn to love. Maybe he was the man who taught you whatever painful lesson you needed to learn….I’m sorry if that sounds shittier than I meant it to.
I’ve come to expect that from life…..”Oh what I lovely rug you have give me life!” As it yanks it out from under you.

Right back at you.
Been feeling an overall feeling of discontent (I think is a good word) in what I perceive to be the world I am feeling?
IDK
Maybe I just stepped off the deep end.

i feel ya

I have been told on several occasions by random people that I am a medium, though I have never directly communicated (that I can remember) with a spirit…not that I have tried…I haven’t because I don’t know that that door can be shut once you fling it open.
It would certainly explain some of the feelings and the strange phenomena that go on around here from time to time.

I can definitely walk past a house and tell you if there is negative or positive energy inside…no matter how the outside looks.
It will stop me in my tracks from time to time and I will comment on it…but I don’t know if it’s the occupants…or some kind of build up of residual energy from whatever the average emotional state is?
Or maybe it’s me going insane.
Probably that.

It did just a little bit ago, but now seems to be subsiding.
Same with you?

See the reason I think there may be something external is this - at first I thought, it must be my medications right, that my body was just getting used to it all way too fast because it’s been on it all so many times for extended periods. So I attributed it to that…until yesterday, took my normal meds. but I didn’t take anything else (even my routine dose) until that evening and I felt perfectly fine.
So if it were the meds. it wouldn’t work like that…that’s when I started thinking more of external factors…in my immediate life, everything is fine…so though chronic pain does indeed cause anxiety it didn’t feel the same. And this thought has been coming to my minds forefront more and more often…that maybe I’m feeling too much of the world somehow.
I’m unshielded…and that’s pretty typical of me…I’m really good at picking out psychic vampires and standing up to them when need be, but for the most part, I think I feel lots of people’s emotions.
My girlfriend was talking about her Dad the other day who passed several years ago and I just started to sob…there was no reason for me to react in such a way…I mean, the logical part of my brain says WTF?

That is really good…I have been feeling the same things…actually, yesterday was one of the better days as far as the anxiety levels are concerned.
What I worry about…because there is no REAL logical reason other than the chronic pain to cause depression or anxiety…though, it certain can.
I worry that I am picking something up for somewhere else and not being able to absorb or deflect it.
Does that sound insane?

I will write you a detailed response later, I’m sorry I have to run right now!!!
Don’t give in!! I have ideas!!