Also; I've worked hard, on building a support network of people. They all have, yet some in particular, been real life lifesavers,allowing me to presently survive (literally) and continue on being a source of help and encouragement to others. Having a life, with the integral opportunity to use your own special gifts, is remarkably satisfying, I've found..I have trouble with obtaining the logistical, concrete needs of human existance yet am not the least bit interested in giving up, especially when I experience the abilities I have to help others, after I've been allowed/helped to continue doing so by they're help, along with that of others.