um, yes...i think the negative/positive depends on how you use it?
so the raw feeling is the same as it was then...but now i do different things with it. positive things
and ur right about self-love too. it's something u grow into, i think. i remember being young and not having any clue who i was or what i wanted to do. so i thought i had to be what the other person was or wanted me to be. that's why it didnt work out back then, in my life. but now i like myself just fine