Milon

Retaking a few french courses since it's been a while since i've had any so, i'll probably take French intermediate language/culture and conversation, possibly Beginning German and/or Contrastive Phonology. yep

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I've been busy. In undergrad, a normal course load was 14-16 credits, and 18 was an overload. The lightest course load in my program is 21 credits, and next term (starting January) I'll be taking 28 credits, which is quite normal for the term.

Other than that, I've been great! And I'm very much looking forward to the Christmas holiday!
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Wow, you have a heavy load. Next term, i'll probably take two classes, since work takes up so much time. But if you can handle the load, i say go for it. If i had a choice I would be a full time student as well

Hey, it's alright It's nice to know your thoughts.

I can't say whether they are defined yet, because that is half of the goal; finding the questions itself. What needs questioning? What's wrong with me, the world, my belief, the world's beliefs? Like you said, is that how life is supposed to be? But WHY? What makes people continue their lives, and what makes me continue mine? Are small happiness important, or it's the big stuffs like, true love, being on the top of the mountain (figuratively), or saving the world? Why?

So....for me it's the questions about....someone's fundamentals. From what defines a good person to what is beauty to...what is X, really. For each grand questions asked, from there goes a lot of other questions I may or may not have the answer for. So it'd be too soon to say it's already complete and thus needing no searching. It's confusing. Like I said, so much I didn't know; or rather, so much I thought I know. But I believe deep inside ourselves, there are already fragments of the answers. So I keep peeling the layers. What was I searching? So many. I keep peeling to see what comes out in order to know myself. But often there is an imbalance between searching outside, and searching inside.

Fumbling and tumbling, this is where God comes to play. By giving external stimuli for me to experience, resulting in some fragments resurfacing, some thoughts sharpened. Some fogs cleared. It was very obvious recently; I was taking a vacation trip to China and Hongkong and all sorts of shenanigans happened. It's as if God was saying "Look. Think about this, this, and this. AND this." But I wasn't harmed in any way. It's as if, all those things were done to get the brain working.

I kind of see it's pretty different with yours, though. But I think it's good; it shows how much God is working within us to shape us into what we are now.

Are you still questioning now?

Hi Milon! I feel the same way. For me - that's one of the best and most amazing aspects of being a part of this forum. Thank you for making it great!

School, yeah. TTYL.

Boo! Have fun at school or whatever.

you busy?

hi tim!

I'm good. thx Looking forward to the Christmas holidays - will be a nice break. How've you been? Nice profile pic btw

Questioning everything is easy when you know all the questions. But wouldn't finding what question to ask the harder thing to do?

I do agreed with what you said. I was thinking about your previous question; MAYBE I could delve deeper inside religious texts to find faith, but then it sounds...weird. Why looking outwards to define questions that came from within, that maybe already has its answers inside ourselves? I did wander around questioning parts of my foundations, some under blind, unquestioning faith, the others under paranoid rebellion. So it helps a bit. But all in all there's probably an inkling of an answer inside, no matter right or wrong.

Pardon me for rambling. Though I've got to admit it's terrifying to know how much I didn't know. Parts of my core values are still fuzzy at best too. *sigh*

Frankly speaking, I have no idea (yet). I'll probably....set a mental course, but...
I have no idea. And that's what makes it annoying.

Oh I wish I could talk to you right now......
>_<

hehe, I see. It isn't stupid! Finding God doesn't sound easy by its very description, and I think you've done a very great and brave job by daring to question your own beliefs. It's something not so many people can --or dare to-- do. I guess it's that kind of thing that keeps evolving as we live and grow.

I have to admit I have suspicions that I'm in one --at least in symptoms-- yet..I dunno, I keep asking whether if I'm actually -in- one, instead of doing something about it.

Yeah, a bit. I saw the Bodies Revealed exhibit, thought it was awesome. The only thing that really grossed me out was a cancer-ridden liver - it looked horrible. But I loved the heart! So beautiful. I want someone to make me a life size, life like sculpture of a heart.

You're welcome!

i'm on!!!!!!!

Hey... something just came up. I have to help someone in need.

I hope I can talk to you some other time.

I'll wait.

*poke*

Could you chat?

Hell no. I always thought it would be very interesting to see what a human looks like underneath all this skin. I'm an INTP, we are very rarely creeped out.