I'm not sure if you'll be so eager to let me do that..! Really, I don't know what it is. From the moment it lifts off, it evokes this awfully stong emotion in me, I can't seem to contol it. Jesus, last time I was so panicked that the person next to me started to look around worried as well.
She's the only one though. I keep it to myself as well, for everyone else. I don't know, I sometimes wonder how the people I know, or my parents, would react if I should tell them one day. You know if.. Like, I never told them anything, they'd feel betrayed.