There's no need to be shy!
I've said some amazingly stupid things here on the forums which have made me want to get up and walk away from the forums.
I'm glad you had a good time at the retreat and that you gained knowledge which is helping you. Speaking of knowledge, here's a link to an awesome christian website packed to the helms with information. http://www.marshillchurch.org/
I'm glad to see you are ok.
I remembered that you were having a few family issues and thought you had taken some time off to address them. So I wanted to see how you were doing.
No, no I was being very serious.
It wasn't rude, and I definitely don't think it was a waste of time.
You're a good person, and I think you at least deserve a reply. Don't beat yourself up.