mochi

That's really great that you stuck by your friends since childhood. Mike is the only friend I've got and he's in VA. I had about four good friends awhile back, but they went their own way. I guess I could say people at work are good friends. I don't really open up to them, but they are really kind.

Say! What kind of music do you like?

OOOOOOOOOOOOOH and your new avatar! LOVE that! Could you perhaps send me a link from where you found it?

P.S. I love your profile background. And the picture in your signiature! n,n

Heh, thanks mochi. I don't know if I have the job yet, and I applied more out of curiosity xP I don't think it has much to do with attractiveness...more like muscle definition and shadows.
What's been going on in your life? You mentioned something about a new job, and good things happening? :>

Things are okay, been better... you know; life and all that stuff. That's okay, I generally don't speak a lot either; I just wanted you to know that I can "see" you : P

Sometimes I feel like I need to reach out, just to let someone know that their existence is appreciated and understood (to some extent)... I know that sounds a bit weird, but I think people often remain under-acknowledged.

Well when I first made a user account to a forum website, I didn't even know what the heck a forum was. It was for a video game forum. Everybody acts extremely immature and the majority are raging hormonal teenage boys. I thought it was fun to pretend like a child like them and go "OMGERZ GUISE NO WAY. Are you for serious??!!!111 That game review was orgasmic" Of course it got really boring after a while, so I stopped. Then Mike introduced me to this site. I must say, I feel I have matured a lot sense then. You know? I believe forums are meant for discussing topics of interest, but I enjoy treating it like a meet & greet sort of thing. It just bores me to talk about personality types and the science of it all. As the English say ITS ALL HOGWASH. The american way of saying it is ITS ALL HORSE SHIT. (sorry I had a moment...)

I'm not sure I act bubbly irl though. I more act.. reclusive. But that's probably because it's really hard to open up to people. I'm gonna go to a christian's single group at church, so hopefully that will help me. Do you attend any activity that helps you overcome shyness?

So, how goes life mochi? Are things well with you?

I've spoken so very little to you during my time here.

thank you!!!!

You're very welcome! I'm glad you liked it. =D

Oh my, I don't like being stuck here. Not one bit. I would happily move literally anywhere else that I could have better friends and a semblance of normalcy. I haven't taken any trips lately, just the trip of the mind. I do desperately want some vodka, however. Hopefully that'll happen tomorrow or Wednesday. 100 proof vodka is soon to be my sustaining force. I was complaining to a friend that I only end up with about $200 per month because of the uneven distribution to family and such. Ridiculous.

lol to call me successful is bizarre. I live with my parents in a town full of nobodies with no foreseeable way out or future.

You quiet! Well you come off quite the opposite through text. I can tell you got a lovely personality. Sometimes quite is lovely, right?

I'll tell you that I'm the quietest person I know. I used to act extremely bubbly when I first started typing on the forum. Since then, I've gone through a lot emotionally, and I just wanted to take a step back on the forum. This place is driven with emotion if you know what I mean. To explain, it can be difficult to discern people at times. Everybody's got their own intention for being on the forum. For me, it was just to be humorous (with an occasional sadness by making sob threads and looking for advice). What I learned is I need to keep the sad stories off the forum. I have to learn to work it out with people I can talk to and trust, rather then opening up to a bunch of strangers (who all have plenty of their personal issues to deal with as well).

Well that's the main thing I felt like sharing for now. It's nice to get to know you a little

Thank you mochi. I appreciate it. I feel better already

I don't know what was going through my head. I thought, "does she really want to know stories?" So I decided to beat around the bush. I just haven't got to know you enough. I assume you and endergone know a bit about each other. What kinds of things have ya discussed with each other now?

how are youuuuuu???!!

i know 3-5 may seem excessive. but right now i'm at 0, so yeah, lol. : )

Well, I'm about to finish one sometime tonight and then I have one more to do, so if you don't mind waiting I'll do one for you too if you'd like.

Thanks for the rep, dear. Did you just like the post or did you want to participate and get my opinion also? =)

Okay, I was feeling bad about my comment almost the whole day, but I couldn't do anything about it because I was at work. I don't want to give Mike a bad rep. He maybe called me a fucking moron once, and I probably was saying something pretty damn stupid. It was my brother more than anything that was a bully. Maybe I'll tell you a more wholesome story sometime

...I think I'm starting to see your silly side come out Mochi I really shouldn't be flirting though, that's why I changed my behavior in my last post. I got myself in trouble for flirting once on the internet. It's not like I was typing perverted stuff, just being more silly-flirty then anything. Even though I was feeling something for her, I didn't know how I felt about things advancing (just don't feel emotionally ready). I learned that I have to be careful on the internet. I just sense something sweet about you. I'll leave it at that.

You were talking about endergone blog were't you? Sorry for being a bit of a tease in my last comment, I just don't feel like explaining personal stuff to people I don't know. Besides that, Mike wasn't specific enough. I really don't remember anything scaring he did to me.

Well there was this one thing... you could always tell when he was laughing. His laugh sounded distinctive, and it was contagious. He could be calling me a stupid fucking moron, laugh, and then my brother would add something to make him laugh even more, and I had no choice but to laugh at myself because the situation turned out quite hysterical

hi you

Oh, I'm sorry I didn't read the blog. I'm fine thanks. I'm just trying to take a step back and not be on the internet as much. What kind of stories do ya want to know about ma'am?