Are you going to school for audio engineering? Is it motivating you beyond any shadow of doubt?
I believe a natural ear for music is inherent, something certain people are born with, and some are exceptionally gifted. I used to want to be an engineer but I couldn't allow myself to rack up the load of debt for places like Full Sail University, just to work on someone's band and to hear input from other people ( I don't like people and I don't like other bands, usually). I work better alone, actually. My idealism establishes a need for total control and my perfectionism will make me a totalitarian in the field, and I just don't think it's worth it, the biggest consideration, all of the debt incurred, just to be able to do something I'm naturally very gifted at. I'll always slave at my own projects, and while I can imagine being an established engineer would be fulfilling, I think my personality traits will keep my abilities in the underground, limited to my own outlets.