then rethink you must, or we might have to reprogram your brain....or eyeseh...maybe.
nope. nyah.
No , not anymore. Maybe once 10 or so years ago but now. I fear that won't change no matter what I do.
why ten years ago and not now? 25 is young.
10 years ago I had a positive attitude (less anxiety). a healthy body (I've gained a lot of weight and stretch marks thanks to my sucky skin), and my life is not where I would have thought it would be. Trust me no one is going to want this bag of crap that is me.
Granted I'm working on getting back on track with my life but its taking some time.
Some days I do, some days I don't. It really depends. I do recognize that I do have some desireable qualities with my appearence, and personality. At the same time though I do see a lot of undesireable qualities.
My biggest issue is, the kind of guys I am attracted to are so different from me in a lot of ways that I just can't wrap my brain around the idea that they could like me and see me as a catch in a sense. It's actually that "fear" that makes me not a catch in a lot of ways.
I would stay away from me if I were anybody else--but I've been told by the smartest & most observant people I know that the things that make girls stand out to me are reeeaaally hard to understand and impossible to predict, so I'd imagine there're some similar girls out there who'd pick up on equally unpredictable traits of my own and go for them too. It's not that I don't think I have any characteristics that make me valuable, but they don't scream "grab this one while you can!", so it'd take a very odd point of view to look at them and think "damn, I would be lucky to have him!"
If it wasn't clear from the post: I do strongly agree about it all being relative.
When I was like 19 or 20, some old pervy man said "Enjoy your good looks now because they're gonna go downhill in a few years."
That asshole was kinda right. Like for some reason there is 2-3 days out of the month when I feel like a total milf. Then the rest of the month is like wtf happened?!
i was very pretty in the past but it's faded significantly and i feel the same as you. still some similarly pervy creep said the same thing to me a couple of months ago so maybe the situation isn't as bad as i thought.
Awww. Let's go get a makeover together k?
I think of myself more as "catch and release".....WTF is that? Better get it off the line fast!
Heehee...I think I heart you Sonyab.
I agree with Indy...yep I'm jumping in here givin' nicknames and such. I flip flop back and forth. I think I know my worth, therefore I have self worth...if that makes sense. When I don't think I'm that great of catch I am hung up on my idiosyncrasies and my oddballness. I know that was a lot more vague then I had intended it to be. I'm not very articulate tonight...sorry.