Does getting inside someone's heart and head scare you?

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As a male INFJ, I find it easier the older I get to deep dive into someone, male or female because I have access to both pragmatism and emotion. I feel bad or guilty because I can (and have) caused a lot of damage or maybe some real good if I try hard and selflessly enough. Thoughts? Does it ever scare you or make you feel creepy that we can reach that person where they live, even by accident?
 
As a male INFJ, I find it easier the older I get to deep dive into someone, male or female because I have access to both pragmatism and emotion. I feel bad or guilty because I can (and have) caused a lot of damage or maybe some real good if I try hard and selflessly enough. Thoughts? Does it ever scare you or make you feel creepy that we can reach that person where they live, even by accident?
*Where they live inside their own head I mean, get to the heart of the matter.
 
As a male INFJ, I find it easier the older I get to deep dive into someone, male or female because I have access to both pragmatism and emotion. I feel bad or guilty because I can (and have) caused a lot of damage or maybe some real good if I try hard and selflessly enough. Thoughts? Does it ever scare you or make you feel creepy that we can reach that person where they live, even by accident?
As a system administrator I've had access to information that was critical to billions of dollars within a corporation. Equally, I've had access to processes that were critical to saving peoples lives. Never have I felt the need or desire to breach the confidence people have placed in me with respect to the opportunities I've been given. This is very similar to getting in the head of a person because it is a place of confidence and trust. I can't say that I have never breached this space because it is fluid and there is a level of push-pull required in every relationship. I have altered the thoughts and feelings of other people but in most cases, it has been to protect them from their self and in that regard I consider myself a bit of a monster, even if I like to consider myself something better [or more]. Still, this is the nature of our world, and I am a parity that most do not want to consider. Equally, there is the psychopath that is the exact opposite of the empath, and if I do not do my part, then that makes me wonder if I have truly been the person I'm suppose to be. I try not to feel guilty about such things because I am a Christian and I believe god gave me the gifts to do what serves "the kingdom." I know that I will fail and make mistakes, and in that regard I choose to continually ask for forgiveness from my monster, sinful nature. So, yeah, there is a bit of guilt but its relative to my station and souls growth, so I accept my self for what and who I am and hope that the world finds its balance.
 
I’m unsure if we can ever truly see another, and it’s a life’s work to endeavor to see oneself without getting caught in the briar and bramble.

Regardless, were I to do so, I would only witness, and not strive to hold, or change. Nor would I seek to trespass, or run roughshod over boundary.

Maybe this is Ne talking, but discovery is greater than knowing, so dwell in mystery a little longer.

The mind is capricious and clever, so be prudent and discern whether one is witnessing, or seeing what one wants, expects, or fears to see.

Cheers,
Ian
 
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