No, I've basically always wondered about reality and social systems.. and theorized...only to discover that all of my ideas have already been published...
(and much more eloquently than I could have written, too!)
I remember when I first started reading about Marxism.. (I was much older than an angsty teenager at the time) and recognized my sentiments in his writings.
I understand what you're saying. Marx is... I never liked his dictatorship of the proletariat, partly because I myself used to belong to the social class that was the enemy, the capitalists. But what I consider Marx's Capital to have given to me is the ability to look at society with a critical eye. And it shook pretty good when I first read about his dialectical materialism. I used to be religious when I read about that. (you can't even imagine how difficult it was for me to find the correct translation of terms... It's very difficult to write in a foreign language about philosophy)
So you really think if you hadn't been introduced to these ideas, you would have become an Orthodox Conservative?
Yes that is most probable. And trust me that would be very good for me, considering my chosen career.
That's interesting to me, because it seems like people who wouldn't otherwise question their beliefsystem wouldn't change their belief system when introduced to new ideas.
I don't think that if anyone studies Marx or Kropotkin or any other anarchist/communist (and therefore atheist) philosopher can easily continue being a fundamentalist or a conservative. And if they do, they are either too clever, or too fanatical.
They may continue believing in spirituality or god, but they would definetely become less attached to that idea. I generally believe that people stay awat from socialism or communism because they DON'T read the philosophical books, and they just judge by what they see in the political world (or should I say, what they know from history which has little to do with communism).
Taz... have read any de Beauvoir, Jaspers or Camus?
Sartre was a turning point in my life as well. Nausea, Being and Nothingness and Existentialism and Human Emotions were seminal for me, but reading Sartre impelled me to read others.
I went back into Heidegger and Kierkegaard and reread Simone's The Second Sex with a different eye.
Jaspers gave me another perspective on Existentialism and Camus brought me deeper into the Absurd with his essay The Myth of Sisyphus.
I find that Existentialist thought cleared away much of the indecision in my life and a much firmer footing in individuality and freedom of choice.
I'm afraid I will dissapoint you... I know little about de Beauvoir, excepting her life and her involvement with Sartre. I haven't read any books she wrote, and the same stands with Jaspers. As for Camus, I've only read The revolutionary, primarily because it was given to me as a present by an exgirlfriend

Sartre on the other hand... my first encounter with his writings was with Being and Nothingness when I was 18. But I couldn't understand anything, so I decided to step back and give it a rest. Years later, I stumbled upon another book "existentialism is humanism" (Ο ανθρωπισμος ειναι Oυμανισμος

) which seemed strange, and then I went on to read his Nausee. It took me a looong time to finish that book. Then I went back to study Being and Nothingness, and I did, but I still doudt I understood everything he was writing. I was pretty confused. Then I stole The Words, two pretty huge books from my fathers library ^^. One thing led to another, and eventually I ended up married to existentialism and Sartre. There is not even one book that's his and isn't in my library, but there is not even one book that I totally understood as well... And I may have misinterpreted a lot of things I read.
I suppose I might look into Simone de Beauvoir when I decide to study something again
