Detective Conan
Doesn't Cast Shadows
- MBTI
- INFJ
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- 2w1
In pounds, usually; if I'm feeling kinky, I might use kilos.
Good on ya.I like my weight right now. My bmi is 19. At 5'2", 106lbs., I am trying not to lose any more but that is more difficult than I thought it would be. I used to weigh 20 lbs. more but that never felt right. I never got too down about it because I had kids and knew I would get back into shape one day.
Boy howdy, did I get back into shape! Once I decide something I have control over is going to happen, I make it happen.
OverweightHow do you view your weight whether thinner, bigger, etc. . . . ?
This is pretty hard to write.
I've always felt too fat. I always feel disgusting. My weight is perfectly normal, and I'm mostly on the skinny side. This spring I gained 5 pounds and carved an "F" into my right thigh with a razor to remind myself that I'll always be fat. I regret it immensely now, and I don't think that it will ever go away.
I've had overweight people lash out at me too, some think I don't get anywhere near the bad treatment they do, they don't realize it goes both ways, I've ben told I am ugly because I'm so boney. People don't seem to realize that for a few, we are born naturally very thin.
I have gotten used to myself over the years but am still very self conscious. I realize though that there are thousands of people way worse off than me, people living with burns and disfigurements, that puts it all into perspective. I am what I am, what a shame society is so rigid and unaccepting and dictates to us what is deemed as desirable. On rare occasions people say nice things, I've been told that I look "ethereal" (hence the username, lol) and I'm like a faery. I like to think I'm half elven and somehow got stuck in the wrong realm.