ClevelandINTP
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They would also dump a written diary of emotions on me. Literally. I'm not a therapist
Yeah but it's not the conversation that wears you out, it's the constant need to do stuff.I've never been with an extroverted person before so I can't imagine what it's like. Do you think after the honeymoon phase, the other person (introvert) will get worn out? I enjoy some extroversion in my life, but not sure if I want that all the time.
Honestly, I think all IN's get along very well. In all variations and permutations.
Speaking as INTP, I often felt very similar (like a soulmate) to many INFPs. We have this instant connection. It's the easiest type for me to develop crush for. Unfortunately, not such a good long term match for a romantic relationship in my experience.
With INJs there's always a bit of tension and time lag to discover how special they are. Not the instant crush feeling, but great match long term.
I haven't met a warm and feely INTJ yet. Might be ideal.
Oh god, I said I need emotions/feelings in my life to balance myself out, but there's such a thing as TOO much emotions.LOTS of Fi
I have to mention this interaction I had the other day. My ex bumped into me again. I don't know how we keep finding each other, but I can assure you none of us are doing it on purpose.
I was in a large parking lot sitting in the backseat of my car to change clothes (getting ready for this new job I just started, and I was also just hanging around in my car till I was ready to go in. While I was changing in the backseat, a car went by (and I didn't pay much attention to it because I thought it was just a random car). They parked several meters away (and had a view of the rear of my vehicle and the back passenger seats). I just looked over to take a glance (I was looking around checking to see if nobody is looking at me while I'm changing). Lo and behold, it was him. I don't know where he works, but I believe he was going to his new job. He sat in the driver's side just staring at my vehicle with a poker face and examining it a bit. So I was in the middle of changing clothes and I lowered my body while hiding in the backseat now; hoping he'd think nothing of it and just go to his own thing... not interfere. The dude actually walked up to my car because when I raised my body again, I saw him and he saw me through the rear window. He was just standing behind my car staring at me with a serious face. I didn't make much of an expression because I was so shocked and couldn't think straight. I lowered my body again and tried to finish quickly in case he walks up to the doors and tries to do something; kind of hoping he'd go away somehow. By the time I was done, he was walking away and went to work.
That was the biggest what the fuck and awkward shit of this week for me. There were no words and no sounds made, just some serious staring; and yet I could feel the ocean of emotions coming from him! Like -- I felt some serious negative energy around him. This guy clearly still holds a lot of emotions (bad or positive... I want to say bad) and is not indifferent to me.
Is this new chick a rebound? Prepare for a long wall of text. This is our history:
I've known him for 2 years prior to dating him for almost 2 years. We're both in our early 20's and we were each other's first love, first everything. We were deeply in love with each other and swore we were each other's soulmates. He changed my life and I changed his in various ways. I've never connected with someone so deeply before. We rarely connect with people like this so it was special for the both of us. We could just sit in silence together forever and still feel loved and happy with each other. We were opposites in many ways, but our differences were like yin and yang. What he was bad at, I was good at and vice versa.
Unfortunately, we had some moments. We later on struggled with more school, money, work, and stress. We were both immature and inexperienced so mistakes were made on both sides; more so on mine. A lot of it was due to my insecurity and depression. We've broken up 3 times in total and he the last one was final. For the first 2 breakups, we got back together after a few days. It makes sense now why that doesn't work out because we never had taken actual time (a period of no contact) to work on myself/himself. We thought we could though. In our last breakup, he stated that we were unhappy and the relationship was getting toxic. This time, he broke up through text and insisted that we must part. He didn't even want to see me or talk because it's too painful. He insisted that it's for the best, it's better for the both of us; that we won't be able to heal until everything is taken care of. Things were very ugly in this last breakup. He even left his job (we work at the same place) at the same time. I know he had a rough time because he sent me all of that in the middle of the night.
It was two weeks in and I started no contact after leaving a note for him. I told him that I agree with us parting ways because it really was what we needed. We both had issues we needed to work on ALONE, and we especially needed a lot of time to heal. We mustn't contact each other and work on ourselves. Lastly, I still love and care about him as a person, he's an amazing friend. If there's ever a time when we've moved on from our pasts, let's reconnect with a clean slate as friends (only if we're both comfortable and ready). It's been 2 months since then.
I saw him with a new girl:
I happened to be at a cafe one morning studying and I see him and his new girl (probably met at his new job) coming in and sitting down. It was really awkward, but they didn't notice me. I was surprised to even see him dating already. The last time I interacted with him, he was very resentful and hurt by everything so I didn't expect him to move on so quickly. He's not the type to take things fast, but then again, I have no idea what's going on with him now.
This girl is nothing like me. She's like the opposite of me. I believe she's even better. She's more fashionable, girly, has designer clothing, probably nicer and sweeter, maybe has better job and house than me, probably smarter, etc... Meanwhile, I'm a tomboy who loves technology and math, is very utilitarian, wears minimal makeup, and lacks that extroverted charm that the new girl seems to have. He even looked good, better than how he dressed when we were together. I know he was trying in this date; I just know him too well... The way I saw them, they were having a long conversation and she was smiling a lot... he probably likes her smile. They both seemed a bit awkward though, but that's probably because they just started. They were even holding hands, kissing, and hugging already. Given the stage they're at, I suspect he could've started pursuing her way before 2 months. I kind of have a feeling that part of him quickly dating someone is due to instinctual reasons. He's a guy with a lot of testosterone and this probably brings him to wanting to find a woman fast.
I've been panicking and having an adrenaline rush since the moment I saw them together. Seeing him with someone else new is so painful and I feel like I'm dying again. I can't even sleep at night. I'm going through some seriously shit right now because of this and I've sought out therapy. I've stood by this guy through everything from finance to deep childhood issues...damn.
not sure if it's strong connections or pure anger. His expression was very seriousHe no doubt felt something strong connections just don't go away so easy
Hi, sorry I'm just replying now. I just came back to this thread which requires a bit more focus than the usual banter.Is it common for INFJ's to doorslam?
During my relationship my ex has attempted something similar but less harsh. He would ignore/block me/breakup rather than talk to me whenever there's conflict (It was over small, emotional, immature shit. No one cheated or anything extreme like that).
I personally think doorslamming is appropriate only when the person being slammed is far beyond toxic/dangerous/hurtful (someone far beyond repair or they literally have no good qualities). Other than that, if it was someone who fucked up a couple times, I usually have a talk with them and fix things. If they fucked up too many times, I'd be disappointed and upset; I'd leave them be and they can deal with themselves. However, these people are always welcomed back in my world if they prove to me that they've changed and they're sincere about it. I have a pretty open heart/mind about things. Life is too short to be resentful and not everything is permanent.
it is imbalanced if almost everything i say gets scrutinized and or misunderstood without asking for clarity. and if the reactions to things are disproportional, or, even worse, used against me. and especially if i'm affording them more grace. like if someone literally points out a physical feature on me directed at me vs. i say something about bad teeth on a movie and they freak out because they think i'm talking about them when there's nothing to suggest that. or instead of asking me for clarity about something, they unleash all kinds of verbal violence which i'm sure would not even remotely be acceptable from me. imbalanced, vague and cruel
i've been physically and verbally attacked by infjs... multiple. never any other type. well, maybe intj (barely, and it was one and a unique situation even though they were out of line)
i assure you my actions didn't deserve those responses
i'd love to talk about relationships vs friendships because i don't think there's as much of a difference on fundamental levels
Yeah but it's not the conversation that wears you out, it's the constant need to do stuff.
An extrovert's life is built around experience of what already exists, while an introvert's is built around creation - extroverts need to banish space and 'boredom' with activities, while introverts need that space for their minds to work in peace.
Sometimes we pair better with people alike so that we understand each other completely and other times, we pair better with opposites so that each person makes up for something the other lacks. I do enjoy my types though because like you've said, they think and act rationally. Everything is direct and honest regardless of how harsh the truth is; something my ex had a hard time bringing himself to do because he didn't want to feel bad or guilty. Just like you, I do need someone with feelings once in a while. It's not fun when we're both like robots.
You're right about the feelings. I'm an extremely loving and loyal individual but I don't display a lot of feelings/emotions. I don't know if you get what I mean but I hold an unconditional love for someone but I have a bit of trouble expressing those feelings. I don't say "I love you" everyday and my ex thought I didn't love him because of that. I actually show my love through all my actions; everything I do for them and us. I won't go into detail about the psycho part, but you're also kind of right on that. I'm not sure if it's all but I think many INTJ's have psycho tendencies. I think this act comes out when they feel fucked over/treated unfairly. This is based on personal experience..
They would also dump a written diary of emotions on me. Literally. I'm not a therapist
I have to mention this interaction I had the other day. My ex bumped into me again. I don't know how we keep finding each other, but I can assure you none of us are doing it on purpose.
I was in a large parking lot sitting in the backseat of my car to change clothes (getting ready for this new job I just started, and I was also just hanging around in my car till I was ready to go in. While I was changing in the backseat, a car went by (and I didn't pay much attention to it because I thought it was just a random car). They parked several meters away (and had a view of the rear of my vehicle and the back passenger seats). I just looked over to take a glance (I was looking around checking to see if nobody is looking at me while I'm changing). Lo and behold, it was him. I don't know where he works, but I believe he was going to his new job. He sat in the driver's side just staring at my vehicle with a poker face and examining it a bit. So I was in the middle of changing clothes and I lowered my body while hiding in the backseat now; hoping he'd think nothing of it and just go to his own thing... not interfere. The dude actually walked up to my car because when I raised my body again, I saw him and he saw me through the rear window. He was just standing behind my car staring at me with a serious face. I didn't make much of an expression because I was so shocked and couldn't think straight. I lowered my body again and tried to finish quickly in case he walks up to the doors and tries to do something; kind of hoping he'd go away somehow. By the time I was done, he was walking away and went to work.
That was the biggest what the fuck and awkward shit of this week for me. There were no words and no sounds made, just some serious staring; and yet I could feel the ocean of emotions coming from him! Like -- I felt some serious negative energy around him. This guy clearly still holds a lot of emotions (bad or positive... I want to say bad) and is not indifferent to me.
It's how they show they love you. Lol you are so not built for an INFJ, Cleve. And yet they make you feel so damn understood, don't they? You miss them and you like them.
I won't disagree with this. INTPs in my life do tend to spoil me. What's that about?I suppose I had to deal with the diary dumping with an INFJ before. And that was so one-sided I became resentful. Like they can just dump and dump and dump their emotional turmoil on me, yet god forbid I want to talk to them about anything going on with me. It's exacerbated in romantic relationships. Then if I voice that sentiment to them, they do the emotional thing and act like they're a failure. It's like, no, I just want you to understand what a reciprocal relationship actually is
So in that sense, no I am not built for an INFJ because I would be the one giving too much
Chew on that
I won't disagree with this. INTPs in my life do tend to spoil me. What's that about?