I have lost my passion for anything and everything, and I want it back. I suppose the same could be said regarding my drive and motivation, but for the time being I will focus on passion, as if I can get that back then perhaps the others will follow.
I think this is largely the result of my having worked in crappy dead-end jobs in non-supportive, hostile environments for far too long. In places such as that, hope, ambition, critical thinking and creativity are treated as liabilities or frivolous ideals--unappreciated at best and vigorously discouraged at worst.
To deal, or accept the reality of my situation, I've had to "shut down". I thought that I would be able to recover my passion or rediscover my hopes, ambitions, dreams, etc. once I got out of these situations. But it's as if they've left my heart forever. I truly feel that a part of--or perhaps entirely--my soul has died. I really don't care about anything any more.
I should also mention that I was physically and emotionally (verbally) abused while growing up. That's probably where the whole "shutting down" thing started, and now it has become my coping mechanism for dealing with unpleasant--however slight--situations.
Life is full of unpleasant situations (as well as pleasant situations). But I feel it's no good to shut down everytime unpleasantness rears its head. I need to stay positive, engaged, and passionate. But I can't.
I should also mention that when I am at my best (when was the last time that happened?), I am fairly driven and ambitious. Through my actions, I pursue the path of excellence; mediocrity (or the acceptance thereof) incites me.
Have you ever been in a similar situation (where you've lost your passion)? How did you get your passion back?
Thanks...
I think this is largely the result of my having worked in crappy dead-end jobs in non-supportive, hostile environments for far too long. In places such as that, hope, ambition, critical thinking and creativity are treated as liabilities or frivolous ideals--unappreciated at best and vigorously discouraged at worst.
To deal, or accept the reality of my situation, I've had to "shut down". I thought that I would be able to recover my passion or rediscover my hopes, ambitions, dreams, etc. once I got out of these situations. But it's as if they've left my heart forever. I truly feel that a part of--or perhaps entirely--my soul has died. I really don't care about anything any more.
I should also mention that I was physically and emotionally (verbally) abused while growing up. That's probably where the whole "shutting down" thing started, and now it has become my coping mechanism for dealing with unpleasant--however slight--situations.
Life is full of unpleasant situations (as well as pleasant situations). But I feel it's no good to shut down everytime unpleasantness rears its head. I need to stay positive, engaged, and passionate. But I can't.
I should also mention that when I am at my best (when was the last time that happened?), I am fairly driven and ambitious. Through my actions, I pursue the path of excellence; mediocrity (or the acceptance thereof) incites me.
Have you ever been in a similar situation (where you've lost your passion)? How did you get your passion back?
Thanks...
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