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melissa*
Well. I don't think my experiences are as extensive or clear the ones you have had, but I'll try and write them out. How I remember these experiences feels quite vague and undefined. This also reminds me how a lot of these things seem to come more from a language of symbolism and feeling than words. I might jump around a bit, if that feels like an easier way of expressing myself.
I understand completely.
You may have read in another thread my experience from age 9-11 when I lived in my grandparents house. I experiences clairsentience and clairaudience, extremely vividly and was kept up most nights. I lay in my bed in terror and tried to use the power of my mind to 'ask' these entities to leave me alone. It was as if they were looking in through the walls and I heard footsteps on the corridor. At the same time I was sleep walking. I remember once waking up on the stairs and one of my family members talking to me.
I also sensed the energy in that house as being heightened, both positive and negative. (e.g. not just negative), and the sense that there was a parallel layer of time going on. I had a
very strong feeling in another house about a parallel layer of time..in a sense the old 'stuck' time in this other house was so incredibly strong. I could not say how I felt it but I did. These experiences are from a village in the west country, in houses 400 plus years old. I wish I'd asked my school friend if they felt it too, (the ones who actually lived in that house). I was only there once, and I have to say it did give me the creeps.
When I was a child, a baby my parents heard a loud moan/groan come from the bedroom of my brother and me, it couldn’t have been made by me or my brother.
I had constant nightmares/night terrors from as far back as I can remember...I have also had several electronic devices turn on and move by themselves as a child...even while in the box.
Then it moved again a week later while on the dresser in the middle of the night (remote control R2D2), and I knew that I was done on purpose by whatever entity to scare me. I was tormented by something with a particular name that I will not name here and give power to.
I went out of body almost every night but I could always tell when the negative entity was arriving...there was a noise..a rushing, electrical buzz/crackling...then I knew I had to run...run back to my body.
Eventually, I gained enough control to jump back to my body and wake up at which point the nightmares ceased.
Dreams of flying. I have had various types of dreams like this,-
Ones where I'm 'flapping' my arms and really trying to defy gravity.
Ones where I'm literally gliding through the sky, effortlessly.
When I was dancing hours and hours of the day I think I had an astral projected dance dream, where I was doing my steps out of body. (probably more than once).
The flying dreams that I've had, most of them have felt hugely significant, as if I had been with my guides or something (?) and I woke up feeling like I had been imparted some message or that something significant had happened. I woke up feeling really happy, elated and alive- and somehow very contented.
The flying thing was such a huge thing to me, when I was about 7 years old, or younger? I was standing on a swing...this is going to sound stupid...I went higher and higher, and then I let go, I think I thought I could fly If I tried hard enough. Needless to say I landed on my chin and had to go to hospital for stitches.
I’ve had lots of flying dreams too...many dreams where I can breathe underwater as well...but I would say that my most vivid dreams have been apocalyptic in nature. Sometimes it is Earth...sometimes it is somewhere like Earth...sometimes it is a completely alien world...and each time, I don’t feel afraid...even though I have seen piles of bodies stacked so high you could hardly see the peak...bizarre and violent ways of worlds ending.
I feel like I’m supposed to observe these things...like that’s my job in that dream, to be an observer.
To see the destruction and death.
I had flashes of realisation as-well in childhood, these came in images I think rather than in words. I had a sense of the cyclical nature of existence, and I saw that in a circular shape, going around in phased graduation.
Peak moments. Oh yes, amazing peak experiences- in relation to nature and the amazing beauty of existence. I still have these but I don't think the experience has been so intense.
Having said that I spent a lot of time in nature this summer. Where I live feels quite magical to me, (it is also on a lot of energy lines- and you can really feel this) and I have been becoming more attuned to the energy around me by spending a lot of time in nature. I felt myself becoming more attuned to the subtle energy and the beauty around me and I felt that nature was communicating with me in particular ways. The very subtle movement of air...the sudden riotous chorus of birds in bird song...even the movement of the branches of trees, the particular light in a given moment...so many little things. These experiences in nature were so wonderful and I realised that if you go for a walk and you rush, or if your with a friend talking, you don't always get the chance to really see or experience anything.
I used to be able to command the winds when I was a child..haha.
I'm interested to know about this sleep paralysis that I have had, the thing where you wake up from a nightmare trying to scream but are paralysed and can't move or speak or scream. I can't tell you how frightening that is. A friend told me that this experience is hypnogogic and is to do with the energy field trying to leave the body, as in a OBE, but waking up you stop the experience, hence the paralysis..I'm not sure if this is the case?
Other experiences I had had was feeling a wave of energy rush as me (I knew it was a spirit)
Feeling a presence/demon point it's finger in my back
'feeling' my energy body as an extremely large thing- projecting out from my body,
or experiencing a part of my body like this.
Also re dreams, isn't it funny how you can wake up from a dream in a particular mood. Sometimes I've been unhappy or worried about something and I wake up feeling different and that somehow everything is alright. So I know something has happened in my sleep.
In healing work, Reiki, some training in bioenergetics healing and basic training in Shamanism. I have 'met' guides and have different guides in the different realms. I need to spend more time with them actually because I get a lot of healing - even from just being very passive in these realms (going on my own shamanic journey, and asking a question or for guidance or help.
In particularly, bioenergetics healing I have 'seen' in my mind's eye angelic guides, and I also know I have a team of south American guides...I usually go and hang out with both on any shamanic journeys.
I think it's amazing that you are so advance in your practice with meditation etc. although I chant, I have been aware that silent meditation is really what I need to do in addition to this practice in order to evolve more spiritually and get more connected to myself and my guides. I want to develop my intuition and psyche more and I know this is the way to do it. I'm glad your meditation helps you and I'm sure it helps alot with the pain..(when I'm doing Reiki I'll send you some healing too -even with an alias name it should still arrive)!
Also, lastly, I'm not at all surprised that you have an extensive reading list, I wouldn't expect anything less! The book I was thinking of describes how to induce OBE, the position to sleep in etc. I am quite weary of developing my psyche in a sudden or dramatic way...I mean the experiences I've had have been amazing and gentle..in the most part. I just ask that they stay that way. e.g. nothing too frightening or sudden, ideally.
I also believe that you can evoke protective energy, through guides, power animals, and I also use these techniques to protect myself. If I'm ever scared or feel something negative I also use sage etc. and evoke some protective energy from another realm. I think believing you
are safe is also a powerful protective force.
It seems that you are quite advanced and well familiar with the paranormal and PSI too.
I have quite a few more stories, most are floating about this thread...it would take a considerable amount of time to give you a full report on everything that I have seen/experienced...but have had a heavy mantle clock thrown at me once...or something hit all the empty hangers with enough force that they all then hit the door of the closet...still can’t find any rational explanation of that one.
Thanks for sharing some of your stories...I’ll have to share a few with you sometime.
Have a good night!
