I hear you SkareKrow, and thank you for expanding on your statement. I did get what your intent is in your post. We agree our prayer energies best serve others. Given some of your back story, aka history, you've shared with me on your having been in the guard and medical field work, etc., I sincerely relate to how you feel
..let me give you my take on God to ponder.
I feel the true "Source" of the breath of life is vastly different from the Earthly God I was taught to believe in as a young person. As a child, I viewed God much the same as I do now...an allowable god, by which I mean since I believe in the call of one's soul to complete the evolution of itself and reincarnation is a tool or school (for simplicity while explaining) on the path to enlightenment of purpose, therefore in the scripture of our destiny we have written experiences we are to witness in that evolution. These hold similarities in the texts of man, regardless of religion or lack of it, written in scriptures, prose, or novel. Some of these events are meant to shake us to our very core...to awaken us. Jesus, while he walked the earth was a extrordinary Teacher. He was quoted as saying, "One has to lose their self in order to find themself." Do we not do this each time we question the 'Why' of an event we witness? The why's like you list, for example, a baby is born and within weeks has the terrible disease of cancer, or is born blind, or the Syrian children you speak of... the list goes on, and on...as does yours as well as mine.
The first death I encountered, I believe I was four. My grandparents had dairy cows and one of the caves was still born. I remember my heart feeling like it shattered in my chest, partly because all life is important to me, and I've been surrounded by much death while here,... I asked my Grandpa, "Why?", through tears and sobbing, oh why could God be so mean as to take the baby cow's life before it ever had a chance to Be...I remember thinking how awful. I also recall hearing a voice that said 'God is an allowable god, it is through witnessing that we learn'...that voice wasn't my granddad, because I had run out in the middle of the field and threw myself to the ground in a tantrum because I was so upset. It was hearing that voice, and the odd thing was at the time, it came from within me and outside me all at once and all around, kind if like an envelopment. Of course, later, upon asking some of my adults around me about that voice I was shushed and told it was nonsense, I was just upset. "We don't hear voices". That has been an ongoing occurrence throughout life...being shushed, often shunned, that some of my tales are nonsense and that I'm some way 'crazy' because I trust in that voice. The voice isn't nonsense, but as I've aged I know now that voice comes from what I've come to call 'home' ...the place that all life comes from, and where we all will return again one day.
My belief in Source is a strong one. I do believe we are created from particles that grow into a baby human form...and I believe in the Source that breaths life into that form which allows us free will choice to get to where it is we are going
-- good choice(growth),
bad choice(stagnation),
no choice(idleness) and in giving us that 'choice' we can move through our life as we best we can...to our benefit or our detriment.
In addition, it's my belief that we all serve the purpose to teach others what we know while we are here. Because we all are one, some 'chose' to accept it, some do not. I have deep sympathy for those who do not, as it will take them longer to fulfill their purpose and complete their journey.
I follow along with some of your postings, and I say, Thank you Teacher for bringing me insights and information I may otherwise not have known. I believe that knowledge is key to ascention, and we are all here to learn from one another, regardless the difficulty in the lesson.
