The usefulness of an unusefull person

Wyote said:
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Serval said:
Despite trying to do something, i feel like i can only destroy it
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Serval said:
I am deeply saddened by this, i am sorry, i really was being serious, i am just not able to do so, am i?
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You're misunderstanding me. No issues on my end.
Carry on.
 
Serval said:
Not that i didn't meant the things i said, I AM sad, you cheered me up, thanks
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Be less sad. You'll be more useful.
Or be super sad and you'll still be usefully useless.
You can't escape the reality of your utility as much as you can't escape the reality of your futility.

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Serval said:
For curiosity's sake i am 17, i already said that in other posts.
For kid i meant i am not able to see a road for my future, i still depend on others (i wonder who wouldn't, internet, your bed, your food is the work of others) and i don't feel like i can contribute on this endless and beautiful cycle.
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That explains a lot. I felt a lot like how you did when I was your age, but I feel almost the opposite now. Your not being clear on your own thoughts or seeing a road for your future... a lot of that is probably just hormonal and literally not having a developed prefrontal cortex yet, which is the part of your brain that deals with complex thinking and future planning. Now you are understanding why we don’t give alcohol and cars to people your age in many countries. You are doing fine now, don’t sweat it.

If you are having trouble in school or enjoying life now though, then try to see a school counselor or other professional counselor. Don’t expose your already fragile state to the useless people on this forum or other potentially useless or even harmful internet strangers.
 
Serval said:
Hello everyone, i didn't check up my account from a long time, and here i am again, i ask you sincerely, what do you personally think you would have done or would do (faint hope) if you could grasp the light, or the power of usefulness?
I usually am very hard on myself, uselessly, you can't grow anything from a hard and dry soil, i tell myself, you have to let the water pass throug you, i beg myself, you don't need fear if you don't accept hope, i scar (not literally, i create, i would say a bouncing memory) myself.
I might just be exaggerating things, i could not see what IS and misunderstood it for what May be, but i don't feel like fight to exist, to survive, because i tend to separate myself from what i do.
I just think i am not useful to anyone, i just make others suffer, it is not other's fault, but i can't see how it can only be mine, the vines and roots that connects everything isn't under anything but itself.
So from the mumbling of a stupid kid, may you give him some advise, may you bright his sight with guiding lights in the darkness of his arrogant mind, may you, o kind counselors, help him to help himself?
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I literally understans what u feel. I'm currently in my 'nothing' mode and I always ended up blaming my personality or hating myself. I feel unuseful, like a trash. At some point I wish I could gone. It's hard to find a strong motivation to get up, to enter my 'all' mode. I'm struggling from this, lately.
 
Serval said:
what do you personally think you would have done or would do (faint hope) if you could grasp the light, or the power of usefulness?
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Hi from the other part of the world. I dont know which dictionary can better explain your situation, either you are feeling useless or wasted. I will try to analyze your next quotes.

Serval said:
I usually am very hard on myself
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Hard on self is a good thing, as long as it doesnt overkill you. "Work smart not work hard"

Serval said:
you have to let the water pass throug you, i beg myself, you don't need fear if you don't accept hope, i scar (not literally, i create, i would say a bouncing memory) myself.
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This one I dont understand. I know we like to cover the story with anonymity. But if u can help explain your situation, it will help to understand and help with possible advises.

Serval said:
I just think i am not useful to anyone, i just make others suffer, it is not other's fault, but i can't see how it can only be mine, the vines and roots that connects everything isn't under anything but itself
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Does it mean you are feeling guilty that everyone around u suffers from your wrongdoings (at least you think you have done something wrong?) Or you just feel useless because u cant help people around you?
 
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