I've been around. However, things have been really busy irl and behind the scenes here, so I haven't had much time to post in the open forums. However, things really cooled off in the hidden forums, so I have time to come back to the open.
Also, I'm glad I was able to cheer you up. However, I must disagree. We do matter. Yeah, we may be tiny and very short lived on the universal scale, but then, on that scale, everything is. So where do we fit in? We matter to each other. We change make enormous changes to another's life, and we can live our own life to the absolute greatest. On the human scale, we're monumental.
That all said, why are you so sad? I know you may not want to talk about it, as is your nature, but remember that if you do want to talk, I'm always here.