'I guess that is why I like to say I am on the line. When I am really outgoing, I am really outgoing. However, I don't crave being in the spotlight--but I won't shy away from it either.'
I recognize myself in this! Even though there are times I'd rather be by myself.
'Big crowds disturb me in many ways.'
I have mastered the skill of avoiding people in crowds. I know how they're going to move before they do.
A bit like Tom Cruise in Minority Report.
Well, like I've said before, you seem to have this really soft side to you, accept it or not.
(Deep down you're an INFP.)
I don't want to be around others at this moment, because they expect me to interact and be happy.
Not that I'm unhappy, but I like to be 'neutral' from time to time. And I hate to receive comments that
I don't smile a lot.
Do people really not want to see that from you, or are you afraid they will not accept that?