Nixie

Yeah, i can relate about the 'out of touch with feelings' thing. For the longest time I was better at spotting emotions in others than in myself. I just didn't know how to recognize or process them, so I either repressed my emotions or had them come out in other ways outside of my control or awareness. And you know me, I'm a bit of a control freak. As soon as I realized that I was having something rule me without me knowing about it, I wanted to get to the bottom of it and try to figure it out.

If you think about it, feelings are really funny things. They're physical manifestations of your unconscious thoughts. beliefs and expectations of ourselves and the world around us. Whenever a feeling shows up, you can bet your mind just finished processing something that was either pleasant or unpleasant outside of your awareness. Can you recall a time when you didn't feel this way about this time of year? Can you recall any kind of thought or event that might have brought upon some kind of unconscious rule or belief about this time? You don't have to answer aloud. Just something to think about to help shake down those feelings you frequently feel out of touch with

I'm not sure I would ever characterize it as mourning, but I do understand what you mean about this time of year. For me, it's like this very faint current of loss that undercuts the expected comforts of the season. I always attribute it to the fact that I notice time passing faster than ever---another year over, the tomorrow that we all had high hopes for last year already passing into oblivion. It's very disquieting.

What's it like for you?

Just got an odd feeling you might need this today. You're a fighter, lady, never forget that!

Thanks, my dear! I've definitely been feeling feistier as a result. It's funny how something small like hair colour can have a huge impact not just on your appearance but your attitude as well.

How are you doing, Ms. Man-Eater? How is that office not-quite-romance progressing along?

Thank you! You are the best <3

Thanks Stormys =]

It won't let me back in!!! >:-(

He's good thanks for askin'! I'll try and post some pictures of the little muppet in my blog soon. How are you?

I saws your post . Haven't moved yet, won't until I'm done with school. Bratlings are doing fine. Shit's been crazy, had a bunch of tests done, including an angiogram only to find out I just have reflux. Ha! Hormones all out of wack and junk...I should look like some wiry haired cat lady. Anyway, just trying to get through this semester with some sanity still intact. How's life on your end?

Which blog??

Really? I rather thought they were bedroom eyes saying “Let’s fuck” lololol
Anyhow....I’m doing alright right now...fingers crossed that this new Doc will have some good suggestions and ideas. I find myself hating my body for always bing in pain...even when I try to be positive it’s hard sometimes when it’s a constant thing...sometimes you just need to break down and let it out. But for the most part I am positive about it...although I do find myself being envious when I see someone jogging or something like that (not that I enjoy jogging, it’s just that they can do it)...not that I’m gimpy or anything, I walk normally and all that jazz...at least so far.

We're, like, so totally in love and stuff:

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My Doctor that I am leaving had me literally in tears that last time I went in there, right before I went on my medical LOA from work...I went to her for help because I was in sooo much pain...she order a bone scan and a shit-load of blood work (both of which cost me money I don’t have), and then when I followed up with her she saw me for 5 minutes and basically told me she didn’t feel it was prudent to do ANYTHING...ugh! I asked if she could at least give me some oral steroids to see if it would help the pain (the pain meds weren’t helping and the last time I took steroids they helped me) she dismissed everything I said...she said the tests didn’t back-up what I was telling her about my RA pain...WTF?!! I limped out balling my eyes out in frustration and hopelessness.....I told myself that was the last appointment she will ever see me at.
Glad your RA is doing okay...methotrexate doesn’t work with ankylosing spondylitis...glad it works for you!
I still take Enbrel...I give myself a shot once a week...I don’t mind...that stuff doesn’t bother me much.

Not too bad...I finally got some meds that seem to be helping...and I finally got referred to what everyone is telling me is a kick-ass rheumatologist...so I see him on the 12th - we’ll see...I’m not getting my hopes up...but I’m mostly functional. Glad you like my silly little pictures I like to post....lol. How about you? What’s new? How’s your arthritis?

hello miss sonya

On the contrary, I thoroughly enjoy your presence. ^^

Well good thing I am growing out my goatee again, as it will surely be a Nixie molestation repellant.

Shucks, don't make me blush. Have a cuddle bear*:

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*Warning: cuddle bear may induce vomiting of previous meal and/or rainbows.

You are back. ^^

Brainiac is actually a supervillain opposed to Superman. I'm just a nerd, but I be keepin' it real yo!

"Blend of brain and maniac coined in the Superman comic book. The term first appeared in Action Comics #438 in July, 1958. The word itself is a portmanteau of the words brain and maniac, with influence from ENIAC, the name of an early computer."