I am not trying to exploit you because you are vulnerable right now, but I definitely think becoming a vegetarian is something you might want to consider. Maybe even a vegan.
As someone who has made these choices I definitely feel better about my life. I grew up in the country. I saw how animals were farmed, raised, killed, housed, etc...
and it was all just too much for me. I never push my opinions on other people but as you seem to be questioning your diet if you have any questions or anything I'd be happy to give you my opinions and shed some insight into some of my experiences.
As someone who has made these choices I definitely feel better about my life. I grew up in the country. I saw how animals were farmed, raised, killed, housed, etc...
and it was all just too much for me. I never push my opinions on other people but as you seem to be questioning your diet if you have any questions or anything I'd be happy to give you my opinions and shed some insight into some of my experiences.