ive been given a lot of romantic attention from guys at certain times in the past, and sometimes it was very intense in the sense that it took a lot of effort to them to orchestrate it. but the substance beneath all that mindblowing attention was very disappointing. i realised that sometimes the attention was wonderful, but they couldnt offer me what i really needed from a relationship in order to make all the work of a relationship worthwhile.
but its still a lot of fun to kind of, dream about.