Honestly? Well.. the truth is that I have been kind of down lately. I feel foolish for saying it, but I felt kind of invisible lately, and a bit under appreciated. I hate feeling this way, because it makes me feel silly to think I deserve anything. I mean... what makes me special ( you don't have to answer that, it's rhetorical) and why do I want to be seen and loved and held. But I do, and I'm not... or at least not in the way I would like to be.. And that poses another question.. who am I to tell others in which way to view me, or love me. People do things in their own way. I do things in mine, why do I feel the need to feel special and thought of, even for a few moments? But I do feel this way.. and so I have been down.. and feeling so silly for it all........