Solongo

I think somewhere along university, I could no longer differentiate between performing for affirmation and performing for the love of the art. The art became a thing defined by grades and outside opinion, and it became the norm till now during my struggle to find out what went wrong back then. Ironically, before university, it was all love and no technique. After education, it was all about technique and the love was lost in the midst of it. My greatest fear is to find that the love no longer exists and I'm doing it solely for affirmation. Music has been all I've loved since a kid and to give that up because of a self-worth issue is a painful thought.

But the passion emerges in little sparks and swells whenever I listen to a moving piece of music. Though seldom when I perform now. I think that gives me the answer that the love for the art hasn't left me, it's just ensnared by perfectionism.

I haven't seen Whiplash. It's a little intimidating? I've a feeling I'm both the drummer and the coach.

I needed those words. Thank you.

I also read some of your blog posts on your site, and I love the one where you mentioned creating is all about being in the moment. That's the exact advice given to me in the latest lesson. That somehow helped me break away from the anxiety, helping me sing the best I've ever had. Still, it's a roller-coaster ride. Sometimes the method works during practice, sometimes it doesn't. Maybe it takes more focus to be in the moment and not let anything else distract.

not sure if you're being sarcastic or not

:wave:

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Thank you so much

Hey I matched your list of sites in our group….good idea!

I hear you. The way I look at it is if you can find a way to incorporate into your daily life somehow, whether it be serving as your actual job, incorporating it into your day job somehow, doing it on the side, doing it as a volunteer in the hospital. It's endless possibilities. As long as you use it well and with integrity and good health. That's what matters most.

I am a PRO at shielding myself and filtering and adjusting my sheilds as necessary.

Well that is part of the reason I started that group…but it is also to have each other’s back.
I’ll do my best love!

I usually have obsidian or black tourmaline in my bra to keep me grounded root-down, and selenite to enhance my ethereal connection. Additionally, i always do a grounding meditation before I prepare to work on someone. If I stay in the moment and set the focus on the highest healing this person could recieve, I'll stay pretty rooted. Believe it or not, despite being a Taurus, yes I do have quite a difficult time staying in 3D when working with higher energies, but nonetheless for the energy to flow,it's gotta happen...for both healer and healee. Often times, they'll leave their body while I'm trying to read their chakras,so I usually get them to wiggle their toes and focus on their feet.

I use crystals when Spirit calls me to, but usually no, unless a chakra needs a lil extra boost, then I place a crystal there to amplify or suck out that energy, depending on the client's needs. I will mention that I always use a pendulum.

It's good that you're asking questions, it shows you're serious

It feels like I've been one my whole life and hadn't reaized it. The initiation itself was incredibly powerful because I got Initiated as a Master of Reiki, Tera Mai, Seichim, and R3. I've also been initiated in Unicorn Reiki, Faerie Reiki, Mermaid Reiki, Galactic Reiki, Dolphin Reiki, Kundalini Reiki, and Diamond Reiki.

All together, it's phenomenal energy coursing through me. It feels like home. When I channel healing , I always get taken into a space of very high dimension, so that I may have a better view of the multiverse that I'm sending healing to. All my extra senses have increased in magnitude and sensitivity. Yes, I would say that using it often has given me a very high vibration. I've lost friends because of this,actually.

I sure am~
As of a year ago or so.

Hello ~

How are you?

That’s why I tried to make a joke out of it.
I thought your response was fine…don’t worry about it.

all done, Sol.

most members of the forum got a spam PM which Deathjam deleted before most people had a chance to read it. That's why it's showing up unread but nothing's showing. It's a bit tricky to remove the notification - I can do it for you if you'd like.

nice. i have a question relating to art in general for you later...i'm PM you soon.

i was not aware you were an artist...very nice.

fair enough. i don't really game

steal & cuddle the controller. report back with his reaction.