Trifoilum

Trifoilum

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  • kucala
    Aww, thank you! I love it! I particularly like the subtlety of the colours and the softness of it. It has an immense feeling of both comfort and yet a certain creepiness to it.
    Thanks so much ^^ Merry christmas!
    IndigoSensor
    You actually READ that? wow! lol. I don't mind not posting it because, well, I don't have any reason to hide it. That and very few people WILL read all of it cause it's so long.
    Milon
    Wow, you wrote that over a week ago! I'm in finals week this week, and last week was lab finals. Sorry for the hiatus. :P

    You don't have foodstuffs that come in boxes? o_O I'm not a fan of them myself, but they're convenient and cheap - the two things that America thrives on! It's highly processed <something> that is put in a box. You heat it in a microwave (something I haven't used in a couple years now!) and it becomes semi-edible, semi-tasty, and negatively nutritious. ;)
    Bird
    Milon
    If you ever visit, beware the American food! Most people eat SAD things. (SAD = Standard American Diet, and it's really REALLY horrible for you. Some people eat only boxed/canned stuff and don't know what to do with real food!)
    Milon
    I'm not in a Dark Night of the Soul anymore, but I'm still questioning. I think I was born questioning. ;) If you ever had a classmate in school, especially in the early years, who was ALWAYS asking questions about EVERYTHING, well, that's me. :D I feel mostly settled with my relationship with God, and I'm definitely growing in that, which is awesome! But still, I like to pose questions and ponder them for seconds or months or whatever.

    And you went to China & Hongkong?! I'm kinda jealous - I've never been outside of North America, and have never been on a commercial flight.
    Milon
    No pardon needed, Trifoilum. :) I'm glad to provide space for your rambles, and searches and questions too!

    What sort of questions come from within? Or are they defined yet? For me, it began with a strong feeling of discontent and disconectedness which kept growing stronger. It felt like I had to do SOMETHING or I would have been ripped apart by it (that's the best way I can figure how to say it). I KNEW something was wrong. And I asked myself, "is this how life is supposed to be? Go to work, pay your taxes, keep wearing masks and hiding, and eventually die? Why does life continue? Just so it can continue?!" etc etc. And I knew that I have no answers for the questions that came from within. I'd been "dealing" with that for years (read: hiding/avoiding and NOT dealing with it) and I knew I couldn't fix myself, let alone the world. I simply don't have it in me to be a good person, let alone an amazing person. I needed God. I don't remember where I left off with my blog, but that's the lesson I've been learning over and over again - I can't do it, God loves me, and He can handle it. I mean, He's God - I'm not. ;)

    And now I apologize for my own rambling. hehe :)
    Milon
    For me, it largely boiled down to this: Question Everything.
    Reason out what can be reasoned out, make use of Ni and Ti, reaffirm your core values, etc. It's very easy to say, but very hard to pull up and rework (or at least reconsider) the foundation of your life. :-\
    Soulful
    That's okay, no worries. Thanks for the link, I will check it out. :) Have a great day!
    Milon
    Well, I definitely came out of it better than I went in. It was a lot of wrestling and struggling. I still believe in God - more than before, even! It really sucked while I was there, though. It looked like everyone else had their lives together while mine was falling apart. A huge part of it was simply me trying to find God and being really frustrated that I wasn't finding him. But I was (in all honesty) giving only half-hearted effort to find God, and only on and off. I didn't find him right away and promptly gave up. Which was stupid.
    Milon
    Hiya! Belated thanks for the rep. I'm glad you liked (are liking?) my old blog. :)
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