ive only met one another demisexual in my whole life face to face, and youra first not face to face whom i actually interact to.
(was an intj)
so thus, i dont really even know my own kind in experience, but in my mind i can easily imagine people who dont exist who i then later meet in my life. thus meaning i might have an idea of what a type is like, well, some month after i find a person of that type and exactly as i imagined. is this Ni? just weird, cause i consider ive been most likely most of my childhood Ne. or maybe its the if im infj, the inner intp thing. although i consider the possibility i could be extremely changed infp, as my feelings have been taunted upon my whole life by everyone. (led me to believe im the only human with emotions/feelings on planet earth lol, while very sad as well.)
i suspect ... nvm with that, i know i have tons of feelings bottled up inside me and ive forgotten my past.
maybe i just started hating their simplicity, how animalistic they were in every regards, how selfish, how uncaring.. ive met only one purely selfless person in my life face to face, and didnt even get to know her. (although we communicated nonverbally in the short span xD..)
especially their lust over breasts.. that has left me somewhat of a high disdain to breasts not small.
eh, my life is just one poem with only torture, all what i have ive conjured out from myself with mostly by now destroyed resolve. (only will power remains, but then my life has never been any better so i dont even know what itd feel like to know your going to live to see a positive time.)
sure you want to hear what i have?
on relationships:
im english speaker, i disdain finish language even as a native i am, unable to properly speak it am i.
the number of such people in finland is very limited, only met two others like me in my whole life, and the rest simply refuse to speak it.
thus all that is postponed to the eventual possibility of leaving this country.