"I think early adulthood stuffs really takes a toll, it's a very  emotional/stressful time - lots of figuring out going on.  I was a mess  at 18-20... more so than I am now anyway, heh.  I do think certain  people deal with it better, or maybe they have more support?  I don't  knows..."
o.o It's hard for me to imagine what you were like as a mess heh.  A lot of people have told me the same thing as you (about themselves, not you 

 ) which gives me hope.  Don't knows... can only hope to improves~