Tell us the story. I'd love to read/hear it.
This is what I wrote the day after it happened:
I guess the summary would be i was taken to a carnival. It was really fun but it all went by so fast. And then after I got examined by lights but I told them it was fine because I had so much fun at the carnival. I asked them a lot of questions and they basically just told me my job was to have fun that by being myself and engaging in play that I was contributing to other people's progression and also to let go and embrace the love I'm being given with Jon and stop getting distracted. Other people keep asking me out and investing time in them is taking me away from making the primary solid. They told me to not get caught up in the gifts I was being given and to show gratitude or theyd take it back.
My gift was the ability to make people feel what I feel, express emotions in a way that is very tangible and relatable including my comedy. It was made very clear to me that if I took it for granted and let it get to my head it would be taken away from me because it was not FOR me, basically I'm just a vessel for this to help others.
The first trip I did I didn't "break through" but they said (it was like, aliens, I knew they were aliens even though I never actually saw them), this is all of human pleasure and I felt it and it was great. Then they said this is all of human pain and it was the fucking worst sensation I have had in my life I begged them to stop and they said "this is all there is, these two things".
I remember seeing a ton of images flash before my eyes like all of human history or something. Then I just opened my eyes and it was over.
The second time I tried in that session I did break through and that was the carnival trip.
It was like 8 hours of a carnival going on rides and playing games but it happened in one moment. The best I can describe it is that it's like if you have a flashdrive and files on it, each file is separate but technically they are all layered on top of each other they are contained in the same storage but you can tell each moment is distinct from one another even though it all happens at the same exact time.
At the very end they wanted to examine me and I distinctly remember saying,
"I had so much fun at the carnival do whatever you want to me, I don't care!"
All they did was like flash a light over my body but it was like they were scanning me. Then I woke up.