Try not to say "I told you so"
@Jet,
@CindyLou, @Gist, @otherpeople... haha.
If you're interested, I eventually texted him, but we never really texted back and forth like we had. There was never really an actual conversation- just maybe five texts back and forth and then nothing. This went on for two months. Yup. I know. Any fool would have realized he was trying to blow me off. Somehow I see too many possibilities in situations and end up hanging on till the bitter end. Plus, he WAS giving me some mixed freak'n signals; about two weeks ago, he indicated that he still was interested in me. Holy cow woman, why hadn't you ALREADY MOVED ON?? Anyway, so a couple nights ago I asked him to please tell me if he was interested still, or not, I said I'd of course understand if he wasn't interested anymore, and it would hurt a HELL of a lot less if he just would tell me so that I could move on. No. Freak'n. Reply. So I was very frustrated that he didn't have the guts to at least tell me outright.
Anyway, so I volunteer with him. Mhm. We're part of this chat group on FB for the volunteer group. He's kind of in charge of things basically everything, actually. Anyway lately he's been being kind of not very nice in general- not very professional to people, etc. It was getting to a point where people would get really really stressed and felt guilty when he'd talk on there. So yesterday, he gets on there and says something that to me was very unprofessional and doesn't help anything. So I kind of called him out on it--- BUT I tried to be very nice, respectful, etc, and basically addressing everyone and saying we all need to have a discussion about some things like this, because it's not fair what's been happening- and I also mentioned that we need to be stepping up more to help the guy I'm talking about because he does like 98% of the work, which of course is not fair at all and things can't function like that. So it took a lot of guts to do that, and I felt like I said it in a way that he might realize what he was doing-- and I didn't specifically blame him or anyone at all, I think I was pretty respectful and polite. I hope. Um, so we all basically agreed to talk about it at the next meeting- except for the main guy we're talking about here, because he hadn't seen the message yet- I think he was avoiding it. About four hours later, it said he'd seen it. I was feeling alright, was a little anxious but oh well what can you do. Then I had a nap. Woke up at 10pm (went to nap around 8:30pm) and was about to go back to bed when I realized there was a message by him in the group. I should have just gone to bed and read it in the morning, I should have. But I read it then, and it wasn't too bad. He was trying to say what he had said earlier was a joke- which it technically could have been, though I still think it's not okay to joke about some things because it has the same effect as saying it outright when it's true and obvious that the person feels that way. And he said something like he'd keep his mouth shut from now on.
Now I didn't want him to think that we wanted him to shut up! Dx Far from it. Plus I thought well I'll just quickly mention that some jokes are hard to tell over text, appologize in case I offended him or anyone, and all will be well. So I wrote that up, hoping that it wouldn't shut down the conversation because I still think it's important for the group to discuss, and sent it. Two seconds later he had read the message and left the group. I felt like mega crap. I was worried about him. Turns out he unfriended me on all social media. Yeah, haha, apparently he hates me now...? Which sucks, but there's nothing I can do about it- he won't talk to me. I only sent him a quick apology for saying those things in the group chat, and I said I should have just messaged him privately. Then I said I'd leave him alone from now on. And I definitely plan on it. Thankfully another member in the group knows him really well and has had success talking to him when he was really mad about something or whatever (I know because he told me) so I messaged her and she said she was going to talk to him. So the Olympic torch has been passed on, and I actually feel really free; at least now I know for sure he wants NOTHING to do with me! 8D Last night was hell but today is better so far.
Despite all this, I know he's a really good person, and I feel really bad for tipping him over the edge- I was not intending to do that at all. I actually feel that this was a cry for help on his part. Hopefully he'll get that help.
So it took me awhile but I think I'm finally ready for 2017 now! Clean slate, trying to think about other things, trying to just not get bogged down by this. Now I'm just rambling. Anyway, that's what happened. :/