Hey Dragon,
It's a serious thing, the contemplations you are having. Relationships, loneliness, what to do and what not to do etc. are very real and difficult issues. It's very rare that people find it easy to get through the dating game unscathed. I would also have to tell you that there is no need to go around trying to change yourself so that you have a 6 pack, because if a girl is going to be interested in you, it had better be for who you are, not "what she can look at". Lots of girls don't feel comfortable with guys who are in amazing physical shape anyway, because often times, we gals are so worried about not having the flattest tummies for attracting you guys, that a guy with just a normal looking body, is so much more of a secure feeling for us. We are looking for someone who can match us in a fairly equal way in most areas, and we need a guy to have the capacity to understand himself, us and to be able to have a conversation. During my time here, I have come to know you fairly well over PM's. Please believe me when I say that you have a lot to offer a girl. You care about others being happy, and can see objectively how things are panning out. You are able to look at yourself, and experience your inner world, and when you share it, it paints a picture of a very interersting and unique guy. There is certainly nothing superficial about you, and believe me, all people (guys and girls alike), like people like yourself. I wish I could help you more, or say something better to help you feel more confident and sure.