Introvert! How would you describe yourself?

OK so to actually own my own thoughts, I'll write something instead of just steal from charlene.

I have a public persona that I don't consciously put on but that I can feel coming off once I'm back in private.

I feel an incredible wave of emotions, worries, and anxieties when in public that I'm slowly realizing don't show on the outside. This makes for a weird sensation when talking to someone I know well in a public setting. I sort of feel the public persona bump up against the real me and I want to just ask them if we can go talk outside so the ICK of that clash will fade.

I love quiet. I love peace. I love reading. I love nature sounds. I love the night. I love really seeing a person. I love that I can say there are actually a few people who really see me. . .but thinking about that too long makes me want to hide for some dumb reason. I want to be seen afterall, don't I? By them? By those I can trust?
 
I really don't know. Most of what has been said so far is true for me as well.

I'm very reserved and unassertive, and I usually decide to keep quiet even if I feel I have something to say. Often, if I hear a statement I disagree with, I'll form counter-arguments in my mind instead of actually taking the discussion. If I listen to a radio debate while driving to work, I sometimes end up feeling annoyed, as if I've taken part of the debate myself. I find that I'm generally very good at approaching problems from multiple angles, and I can easily understand different perspectives even if they are vastly different. While this is not necessarily a bad thing, it means my opinions are often inconsistent (for example, even though I'm very interested in and knowledgeable about politics, I don't really know if I'm a socialist or a conservative - depending on the situation I could be classified as both.)

Like most other people here, I feel slightly uncomfortable with too many people around, but I'm able to put on a facade of confidence in order to cope. That being said, I'm surprisingly good at making friends, and it seems as if people quickly take a liking to me when I finally open up. I think I'm very good at empathizing with people and understanding their inner feelings, and as a result, people feel comfortable being around me.

How much of myself I share with other people depends entirely on how comfortable I feel around that person.
 
How would you describe yourself? Like a glass. When you look through it you see endless layers and shades of gray.

Do you feel like the you on the inside is accurately portrayed on the outside? Do you share much of yourself with people and do you feel it's important to do so? How much of yourself do you just keep for you?

My close relationships are very close, intense, and I am transparent in these. I tend to form lifelong bonds with people who are similar. Short term and acquaintance type relationships are very draining for me and I generally don't share much of myself in these types of relationships.
 
Maybe I'm an idiot but I've actually tried to force people to know me, because I'm tired of people getting me wrong, I'm tired of people not knowing me better. I've gotten emotional before with people who were friends that I thought I could trust with complete disregard as to if they would use me or not. I don't think I have been used. Just abandoned sometimes from people who didn't know what to think or how to handle it.

Today I still think no one knows me in a way that I desire to be known that is true. It's only recently after thinking about it the past few years that I've come to the conclusion I've been going about it the wrong way. Maybe it is a good thing to hold back. Maybe it's a good thing to not be so vulnerable. Because in the end I have found that I unwillingly keep part of myself secret anyways, and that's the part I wish more people would know of me, and not of my problems. The worst feeling in the world for me is when I try to communicate with a friend, and they get it completely wrong...devastating is the word. I find myself reclusing from these people until my old stubbornness comes back. I try again to communicate and again it fails. Until I give up on said people. Really is it so hard to understand?! I find myself thinking.

writing all this makes me want to confess, I've always had a desire to find someone who was an optimistic extrovert, that naturally pulled me out of myself. In a strange way being a catalyst for me. Maybe that's a silly dream.
 
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