This is so so true... from the overall good things to the small positive daily things.. and being thankful..
You don't need to thank me ..really.. . ..I enjoy sharing.. (just imagine what a smile can do to anyone when having a bad day.. or sharing some youtube videos on medidation *s*) and also ..we might get stuck in an infinite loop of thank yous (beware
)..
wow, that's really great! and...that are so many people! are you nervous..? (I'll cross my fingers!)
Please don't worry or stress yourself out about it.. ^^""
I'm a bit at easy now.. I know a couple of people (that are very dear to me) who aren't necessarily as careful with substances as you sound writing about it in more detail.. and who suffer from depression every now and then throughout life..maybe even still searching for the right help.. that sure is not easy at all.. .. . if you found something that eases life and you take good care of you..that's good
thank you for sharing, again ^^ When I wanted to try it out my headphones kind of
disolved.. but I'll figure this out ^^"""
humm... let me see if I've something for you too... !
I listend to this sometimes in the bathtub with my ears under water
sound like water, wind blowing, light rays and birds to me <3
Not too nervous...I would rather have too many people than like 3 people wander in on accident, lol.
No, surprisingly I have never had an issue with public speaking...and I have always worked in the medical field of one sort or another from working on an ambulance, the ER, the OR, assisting with open heart surgery.
I always test as a very assertive INFJ...doing crowd control on an accident scene or yelling at a junkie to “stop thrashing!”...to having to be perfectly cool under super stressful chaotic trauma room conditions, rushing upstairs to the CV-ICU to do an emergency bedside “chest reopening” in cases of bleeding...my mind switches modes and I go into my training/“trivial pursuit” mode where all my previous training as well as random facts are available to me and I know exactly what the next 5 steps are in an instant from practice over the years with a dash of intuition thrown in.
So I have that going for me at least.
There is no way I could have done that right after I became disabled (I have ankylosing spondylitis ((you know it must be true if I know how to spell the damn words))), I had some serious anxiety/depression...it was so bad that if someone like a bill collector called (which I had no money to pay while I waited for disability to be approved) anyhow...it was so bad that I would lose my breath, my heart would pound, I literally could NOT talk to them.
This is going from super-stressful jobs for decades to being incapacitated.
So I was barely hanging on...had some negative drug reactions that almost stopped my heart and that kind of woke me up that I needed to do something more proactive about my mental and physical state.
I meditated every day but could only sit still for 10-15 mins at a time due to the anxiety.
I always stay fairly up to date on the leading edge of medical studies, and also things like the paranormal and etheric energy, etc.
(That’s a bunch of other posts)
Anyhow...like I said it was mostly out of desperation, but I wasn’t stupid about it....I looked up drug interactions, dosages, all the medical studies that showed how well it worked for depression/anxiety/PTSD/addiction/etc. far far better than than ANY anti depressive on the market - which I have tried most of only to have horrible side effects and no positive benefits, in many cases it made the anxiety worse.
So it was this or start to seriously consider electroshock therapy (I was seriously considering it).
The first time was a small dose and it wasn’t very pleasant but it was necessary.
It forced me, for about 6 hours to be present...fully present...it was very uncomfortable mentally at first.
But the more you let go and let it do it’s thing, the more pleasant it becomes.
The studies using fMRIs have shown that the entire brain gets to talk to itself via transmission lines that it doesn’t ever use...bypassing those pathways our thoughts normally travel that have become tainted by negative experiences...so that every thought that travels this path is seen through a “foggy lens” so to speak...the amygdala is highly overactive in people with D&A...for some reasons while it activates the rest of the brain...it quiets this overactive part that is the response center for pain and stress...there is also a dissolution of your ego to various extents...which is very enlightening in itself.
I liken it to being on a giant record that is stuck in a skip...every time it goes around the needle digs that skip just a little bit deeper until finally you can no longer see over the edge of the skip...the rest of the song is never heard, the songs to come are forgotten or given up on.
This bumps the needle and lets the rest of the record continue imho.
Plus...when very depressed you feel so alone and disconnected...this does just the opposite for you...it makes you feel hyperconnected and a part of everything and you feel only what I can describe as an overwhelming “spiritual love” without being religious...tears come easy...you ball your eyes out at the pure beauty you are witnessing after living in a drab and gray world for such a long time - in my case, a lifetime.
So...I advocate for the safe and therapeutic use of them now and my group is sponsored through a non-profit that is a huge entheogen advocate group up in this area.
Back to that first time...where I was fully present.
Guess who could meditate for hours upon hours after that?
Amazing!
And it was because of being able to meditate that I was able to help myself with the D&A that wasn’t wiped out by the experiences themselves...which they actually do somehow...and the great part is...they are non-addictive...and you only need to take them every 4-6 months...not popping an expensive chemical pill every day.
There is much more to it all than that...but the post would be huge...lol.
Hope that explains it better for you and for some others who seem to be curious.
Much love!
) when we meditate.
