Skarekrow
~~DEVIL~~
- MBTI
- Ni-INFJ-A
- Enneagram
- Warlock
Thank you for sharing your views and opinions here…I appreciate it.Hi Skarekrow,
I remember when I was about four I could sort of see myself from above in my room sometimes before sleeping or after I woke up. I thought about this later and thought that maybe I was just dreaming this but recently I've wondered if it was just the transition between having a more universal consciousness to a more individualized one. I wonder if we had been brought up in households or cultures where exploration of the universal/collective consciousness is encouraged, if we would have kept that "flow" more - or would we rebel against that because it didn't give us the challenge of the uphill battle that we seem to have now? It's like we have the adventure of being the sole duck being hatched on a chicken farm - we learn the language of all the clucking and we forget that we can really fly. Maybe the differences help us learn and question and grow even more. Anyways, thanks for all the wisdom you share in your posts - at least we can all sort of connect here and not feel quite as 'ugly'!
I believe you.
I remember watching multicolored particles swirl around my head..sometimes it would stop and go back the other way…but I remember it was very much like watching dust motes blowing and creating whirlpools and currents…except that I could see it in the dark…and could reach out my hand and interact with it…or so I seem to remember doing.
I wonder if it was like you said, one of those things where your parents didn’t see what you saw and eventually you didn’t either because it was always dismissed?
It’s hard to stay in the “flow” because just about everything in life is geared to distract us…to individualize us and wrap us tightly in our egos!
I remember the last time I felt like this it seemed that everyone was in a bad mood and couldn’t see why I felt so good…I think I just lost focus dammit.
Anyhow…glad to have my head back on so it feels…lol.
What is really frustrating for me is maintaining that sense of “contentment”…I find I am constantly purposefully trying to step out of my own head and observe myself from a third-perpective (which takes practice) because it seems to eventually break me through whatever ceiling I seem to run into.
Again, thanks for reading!