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[Skarekrow]

Great stuff!

You know i think some people have got the wrong idea about the whole happiness thing

Happiness isn't about comfort. I mean that's what set gautama on the road wasn't it? He was sitting on his nice cushions in his palace being fed grapes off a silver platter and one day he just sat up, the emptiness consuming him and he thought 'fuck my life is so empty!'

He put the grapes down, got up off his cushion and walked to his room. Maybe he said something to his people or maybe he just quietly slipped out a side door and that was it.....he walked off down the road until his shoes fell off his feet

The sun beat down on his brow, the grit rubbed his hardening feet and his stomach groaned with hunger but he had never felt so alive...because.....he had an idea

There is much truth to that.
I have isolated myself from people for most of my years alive…was fairly sociable in late teen years but that ended soon into my 20’s.
It’s not that I feel the need to go out and find a bunch of friends…but it’s kind of the apathetic version of the New Ager only seeing the positive and sticking their head in the sand.
I even found a job for myself where I had minimal verbal and face to face time with the patients I took care of…I mean, I was all inside them in many other more invasive ways, but that was also closing myself off from the world…I didn’t intend it to be that way from the beginning, but that is what it ended up being for me.
And…I have had very little shielding of myself in all my years in the medical field…I can shut my feelings down in a snap, because that is what you have to do to do the best you can for that dying person or child at the time…but then I carry that emotion around, it probably helped my arthritis exist in the first place (not to mention, lifting too many fat people on stretchers down or up flights of stairs).
I just pushed it all down, down…I had no outlet.

With the loss of this identity for me, it’s had a profound impact on everything I had built for so many years…the sense of pride I once took felt depressing for many months.
I think I was supposed to almost die that day.
I know this may sound crazy…but I think I almost died several times in the days leading up to that day.

I had just broken from my depression and I just didn’t feel well…I had just started the IV therapy for my arthritis and I just didn’t feel right…I remember standing in my kitchen…I had the dry heaves all morning…I called out “Please, I don’t feel well…something is wrong...someone help me!” And I kid you not it felt like someone reached into my chest and the most pleasant feeling…like you felt in your chest at your first real kiss!
I actually had to step back to steady myself and catch my breath as it felt like it was sucked out of my lungs.
But I felt better…I didn’t feel sick.

This happened again a couple days later…I was feeling this way again…and I thought - There is no way that if I ask for help again I will have such a thing happen again…I made excuses that I was just overwhelming myself, it was all in my head.
But I asked for help again…and again…I felt this hand reach into my chest…same thing…if it was all in my head, then goddamn I’m good.

So it turns out I was dry heaving in the morning from my heart rate being so slow and the anxiety that I blamed it on, was my blood pressure shooting up trying to maintain with such a slow HR.
I just didn’t know this until my heart almost stopped.

I really feel that someone actually converted my heart rate back to a normal rhythm…I could liken it to being shocked by the defibrillator, except highly pleasant.
So that's the story.
That whole experience has even further pulled me out of any depression that was remaining…the important things in my life where those I loved and who loved me - nothing else mattered in those moments of perfect being in the now.

 

[muir]

There is much truth to that.
I have isolated myself from people for most of my years alive…was fairly sociable in late teen years but that ended soon into my 20’s.
It’s not that I feel the need to go out and find a bunch of friends…but it’s kind of the apathetic version of the New Ager only seeing the positive and sticking their head in the sand.
I even found a job for myself where I had minimal verbal and face to face time with the patients I took care of…I mean, I was all inside them in many other more invasive ways, but that was also closing myself off from the world…I didn’t intend it to be that way from the beginning, but that is what it ended up being for me.
And…I have had very little shielding of myself in all my years in the medical field…I can shut my feelings down in a snap, because that is what you have to do to do the best you can for that dying person or child at the time…but then I carry that emotion around, it probably helped my arthritis exist in the first place (not to mention, lifting too many fat people on stretchers down or up flights of stairs).
I just pushed it all down, down…I had no outlet.

With the loss of this identity for me, it’s had a profound impact on everything I had built for so many years…the sense of pride I once took felt depressing for many months.
I think I was supposed to almost die that day.
I know this may sound crazy…but I think I almost died several times in the days leading up to that day.

I had just broken from my depression and I just didn’t feel well…I had just started the IV therapy for my arthritis and I just didn’t feel right…I remember standing in my kitchen…I had the dry heaves all morning…I called out “Please, I don’t feel well…something is wrong...someone help me!” And I kid you not it felt like someone reached into my chest and the most pleasant feeling…like you felt in your chest at your first real kiss!
I actually had to step back to steady myself and catch my breath as it felt like it was sucked out of my lungs.
But I felt better…I didn’t feel sick.

This happened again a couple days later…I was feeling this way again…and I thought - There is no way that if I ask for help again I will have such a thing happen again…I made excuses that I was just overwhelming myself, it was all in my head.
But I asked for help again…and again…I felt this hand reach into my chest…same thing…if it was all in my head, then goddamn I’m good.

So it turns out I was dry heaving in the morning from my heart rate being so slow and the anxiety that I blamed it on, was my blood pressure shooting up trying to maintain with such a slow HR.
I just didn’t know this until my heart almost stopped.

I really feel that someone actually converted my heart rate back to a normal rhythm…I could liken it to being shocked by the defibrillator, except highly pleasant.
So that's the story.
That whole experience has even further pulled me out of any depression that was remaining…the important things in my life where those I loved and who loved me - nothing else mattered in those moments of perfect being in the now.

I knew you were going through health problems and of course about your arthritis but I didn't know the specifics

Was it the IV therapy that kick started that episode or a combination of that and anxiety?

 

[Skarekrow]

I knew you were going through health problems and of course about your arthritis but I didn't know the specifics

Was it the IV therapy that kick started that episode or a combination of that and anxiety?

No…I was taking a drug called propranolol…it’s a beta-blocker, used for BP, but also for anxiety and prevention of migraine.
I was taking it for prevention of migraine, which is totally stress related with me, and my job was fucking stressful sometimes.
The IV therapy could have played a role as it can zap your immune system…but most likely it was a combo of that propranolol and indomethacin which is a prescription NSAID like aspirin and acetaminophen…anywho, it caused the propranolol to build up to a toxic level in my blood…which really beta blocked my heart…it dropped it down to 30 the day the ambulance took me away, while my BP was at 225/110…I was literally waiting every second to die…
You can only think two things in that moment…how you fucked up your life (which I didn’t)…or think about those you love and who love you unconditionally.

I feel very lucky that I did not die…but it was rough on my heart as you can imagine…my heart enzymes were moderately elevated…they kept me overnight to make sure my heart didn’t drop back down while they gave me fluids to flush my system…but you could almost equate it to having a small heart attack without having a clogged artery.

Fucked up bullshit.
I hate medications…I am trying everything I can possibly do to take the fewest possible if any at all…I’m making it…it’s just taking time to heal.
I really feel that the anxiety I was feeling was from my BP being up too high compensating for a slow HR…it could have been a gradual thing, with that medication pushing it over the edge.

 

[muir]

No…I was taking a drug called propranolol…it’s a beta-blocker, used for BP, but also for anxiety and prevention of migraine.
I was taking it for prevention of migraine, which is totally stress related with me, and my job was fucking stressful sometimes.
The IV therapy could have played a role as it can zap your immune system…but most likely it was a combo of that propranolol and indomethacin which is a prescription NSAID like aspirin and acetaminophen…anywho, it caused the propranolol to build up to a toxic level in my blood…which really beta blocked my heart…it dropped it down to 30 the day the ambulance took me away, while my BP was at 225/110…I was literally waiting every second to die…
You can only think two things in that moment…how you fucked up your life (which I didn’t)…or think about those you love and who love you unconditionally.

I feel very lucky that I did not die…but it was rough on my heart as you can imagine…my heart enzymes were moderately elevated…they kept me overnight to make sure my heart didn’t drop back down while they gave me fluids to flush my system…but you could almost equate it to having a small heart attack without having a clogged artery.

Fucked up bullshit.
I hate medications…I am trying everything I can possibly do to take the fewest possible if any at all…I’m making it…it’s just taking time to heal.
I really feel that the anxiety I was feeling was from my BP being up too high compensating for a slow HR…it could have been a gradual thing, with that medication pushing it over the edge.

Phew....bit of a brush with mortality then

With the different meds in your system i guess it then becomes hard to tell whats doing what and to read the feedback from your body because of the artificial ups and downs the meds produce.....system overload

In that hospital i worked in they didn't really know for sure what effect the drugs were going to have on people...it was all trial and error

It might be a message though to have a change of pace; i can imagine surgery would be one of the most stressful areas to work in in any field and it sounds like you've got an idea of where you want to go with things

You've got to look after the old ticker!

 

[Skarekrow]

Phew....bit of a brush with mortality then

With the different meds in your system i guess it then becomes hard to tell whats doing what and to read the feedback from your body because of the artificial ups and downs the meds produce.....system overload

In that hospital i worked in they didn't really know for sure what effect the drugs were going to have on people...it was all trial and error

It might be a message though to have a change of pace; i can imagine surgery would be one of the most stressful areas to work in in any field and it sounds like you've got an idea of where you want to go with things

You've got to look after the old ticker!

Well, everything is turning out how it should IMHO.
I can only do what I can do…my expectations are my own.

The drugs can be scary yes!
My Doctor apologized to me actually after it happened.

How are things with you anyhow?
How was your hiatus you took for a while there?

 

[Skarekrow]

CERN researchers confirm existence of the Force

Researchers at the Large Hadron Collider just recently started testing the accelerator for running at the higher energy of 13 TeV, and already they have found new insights into the fundamental structure of the universe.

Though four fundamental forces — the strong force, the weak force, the electromagnetic force and gravity — have been well documented and confirmed in experiments over the years, CERN announced today the first unequivocal evidence for the Force.

"Very impressive, this result is," said a diminutive green spokesperson for the laboratory."
The Force is what gives a particle physicist his powers," said CERN theorist Ben Kenobi of the University of Mos Eisley, Tatooine.

"It's an energy field created by all living things. It surrounds us; and penetrates us; it binds the galaxy together."
Though researchers are as yet unsure what exactly causes the Force, students and professors at the laboratory have already started to harness its power.

Practical applications so far include long-distance communication, influencing minds, and lifting heavy things out of swamps.
Kenobi says he first started teaching the ways of the Force to a young lady who was having trouble revising for her particle-physics exams.

"She said that I was her only hope," says Kenobi. "So I just kinda took it from there. I designed an experiment to detect the Force, and passed on my knowledge."
Kenobi's seminal paper "May the Force be with EU" — a strong argument that his experiment should be built in Europe — persuaded the CERN Council to finance the installation of dozens of new R2 units for the CERN data centre*.

These plucky little droids are helping physicists to cope with the flood of data from the laboratory's latest experiment, the Thermodynamic Injection Energy (TIE) detector, recently installed at the LHC.

"We're very pleased with this new addition to CERN's accelerator complex," said data analyst Luke Daniels of human-cyborg relations.
"The TIE detector has provided us with plenty of action, and what's more it makes a really cool sound when the beams shoot out of it."

CERN librarian Tullio Basaglia has learnt to harness the Force to return reference books to their shelves.​

But the research community is divided over the discovery.
Dark-matter researcher Dave Vader was unimpressed, breathing heavily in disgust throughout the press conference announcing the results, and dismissing the cosmological implications of the Force with the quip "Asteroids do not concern me".

Rumours are growing that this rogue researcher hopes to delve into the Dark Side of the Standard Model, and could even build his own research station some day.

With the academic community split, many are tempted by Vader's invitations to study the Dark Side, especially researchers working with red lasers, and anyone really with an evil streak who looks good in dark robes.

CERN physicist Valerio Rossetti harnesses the Force for more mundane tasks, such as reheating coffee.​

"We hope to continue to study the Force, and perhaps use it to open doors with our minds and fly around and stuff," said TIE experimentalist Fan Buoi. "Right now, to be honest, I don't really care how it works. The theory department have some crackpot idea about life forms called midi-chlorians, but frankly I think that poorly thought out explanations like that just detract from how cool the Force really is."

With the research ongoing, many at CERN are already predicting that the Force will awaken later this year.

*Sources close to the Data Centre later revealed that these were not the droids they were looking for.


Read more at: http://phys.org/news/2015-04-cern.html#jCp

Happy April Fools Day!!​

 

[Skarekrow]

Okay, this is an actual article here…this is frightening!!!

"Earth has shifted"-Inuit elders issue warning to NASA and the world


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Voltar Ondrusek, Pixdaus​

Inuit elders say the earth has shifted, tilted or as they put it, "wobbled" to the north and they all agree "Their sky has changed!" They say it is becoming increasingly hard to predict the weather, something that is a must in the Arctic.

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The Inuits are indigenous people that inhabit the arctic regions of Canada, the United States and Greenland and throughout history their very lives have been dependent on being able to correctly forecast weather.... and they are warning NASA and the world that global warming isn't the cause of what we are seeing with extreme weather, earthquakes and other events.

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en.wikipedia.org​

Inuits believe their lives have been affected by a shift. The elders who were interviewed across the north all said the same thing, their sky has changed. The stars, the sun and the moon have all changed affecting the temperature and even affecting the way the wind blows. It is becoming increasingly hard to predict the weather, something that is a must on the Arctic.

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The earth has shifted, tilted or as they put it, "wobbled" to the north and they all agree "Their sky has changed!"
The elders maintain the Sun doesn't rise where it used to, they have longer daylight to hunt and the Sun is higher than it used to be and warms up quicker than before.

The elders who were interviewed across the north all said the same thing, their sky has changed.
The stars the Sun and the Moon have all changed affecting the temperature, even affecting the way the wind blows, it is becoming increasingly hard to predict the weather, something that is a must on the Arctic.

The elders all agree, they believe the Earth has shifted, wobbled or tilted to the North.
In an article in The Big Wobble Almanac, and in a video, we see some of the extreme weather events being attributed to this "wobble."

In the article it states that NASA scientists and experts are "worried" by the information the Inuit Elders are providing for them.

http://www.newspaper.indianlife.org...-issue-warning-to-nasa-and-the-world/582.html

 

[Skarekrow]

Simply astounding!!
How can we say that there is no underlying connecting consciousness out there?
Or at least some kind of life force that continues on…
How could these dogs possibly know?!

Grieving Daughter is Floored By Uninvited Guests
That Show Up & Refuse to Leave Her Mother’s Funeral

At the funeral of 71-year-old Margarita Suárez in Cuernavaca, Mexico, there were an abundance of heartfelt moments, but none as unexpectedly moving as when a pack of stray dogs walked in.

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According to ABC News, Suárez’s family was “delighted” to see the dogs, but surprised because Margarita’s funeral was being held 830 miles away from home.
Known for feeding stray dogs, these weren’t the same ones that Margarita used to feed.

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Suárez’s daughter, Patricia Urrutia tells ABC News:

“They stayed with my mother all day, and then at night they all stayed – but in the morning all the dogs vanished but one, but one hour before we brought my mom to be cremated the dogs came back and grouped around as if to say goodbye, I swear by God that it was beautiful, marvelous.”


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“My mom has always been good with all animals and people, always fed the dogs on her block and the 20 stray cats that lived there,” Urrutia said.
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Employees of the funeral home said they had never seen anything like this before and that stray dogs don’t usually hang around the area.

The dogs’ presence – for Urrutia – was a beautiful gift that helped her during a tough time, something that she’ll always remember.

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Urritia noted, “When I was in a moment of so much pain these dogs that came, they showed me that everything wa going to be okay.”

 

[Skarekrow]

 

[muir]

Well, everything is turning out how it should IMHO.
I can only do what I can do…my expectations are my own.

The drugs can be scary yes!
My Doctor apologized to me actually after it happened.

How are things with you anyhow?
How was your hiatus you took for a while there?

I'm glad it's all coming together

Yeah i'm alright thanks, gradually hacking my way through the jungle of life!

Rediscovered books on my time off the internet; had a bunch i've been meaning to read for years and finally did it. I've tried reading a particular jung book about 4 times in the past and this time i finally cracked it; i feel i was ready to better understand what it was saying. So I must be learning something!

 

[Skarekrow]

I'm glad it's all coming together

Yeah i'm alright thanks, gradually hacking my way through the jungle of life!

Rediscovered books on my time off the internet; had a bunch i've been meaning to read for years and finally did it. I've tried reading a particular jung book about 4 times in the past and this time i finally cracked it; i feel i was ready to better understand what it was saying. So I must be learning something!

Jung is a fascinating man for sure!
He has such a deeper insight than the other popular Psychiatrists and Psychologists of the time.
He was one of the first to really incorporate what he learned on his near death experience into some of his beliefs about our psyche.

That’s great you can get some good reading time in!

Glad that everything is well with you!

 

[muir]

Jung is a fascinating man for sure!
He has such a deeper insight than the other popular Psychiatrists and Psychologists of the time.
He was one of the first to really incorporate what he learned on his near death experience into some of his beliefs about our psyche.

That’s great you can get some good reading time in!

Glad that everything is well with you!

Found reading very relaxing and it did me some good to take some time off the internet

I love the internet...there's so much good stuff online, but I find reading very calming

 

[Skarekrow]

Found reading very relaxing and it did me some good to take some time off the internet

I love the internet...there's so much good stuff online, but I find reading very calming

Same here.
I have such a great pile of books that I haven’t read yet…I’m getting there!
My older brother can read an average novel in half a day.
It’s takes me half a week…not reading all day per say.
But, that’s quick enough for me!

 

[muir]

Same here.
I have such a great pile of books that I haven’t read yet…I’m getting there!
My older brother can read an average novel in half a day.
It’s takes me half a week…not reading all day per say.
But, that’s quick enough for me!

Half a day? That's fast
Is he a speed reader?!

Yeah my reading list was backing up so i needed a splurge!

I suppose i do a lot of reading online as well, but i like the feel of a book in my hands

Soon it will be slippers, pipe and a good book....ahhh the good life!

 

[Skarekrow]

Half a day? That's fast
Is he a speed reader?!

Yeah my reading list was backing up so i needed a splurge!

I suppose i do a lot of reading online as well, but i like the feel of a book in my hands

Soon it will be slippers, pipe and a good book....ahhh the good life!

I refuse to buy a Kindle or some other crap…I actually ruined my Mom’s gift she was going to get me for Christmas after I informed her - please don’t buy me a Kindle, whatever you do.
She goes - Ugh, that’s what I was going to get you!
Hahahaha!

I like the feel of books too.

 

[Skarekrow]

[video=youtube;opHsaJ1hxuc]https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=opHsaJ1hxuc[/video]

 

[muir]

I refuse to buy a Kindle or some other crap…I actually ruined my Mom’s gift she was going to get me for Christmas after I informed her - please don’t buy me a Kindle, whatever you do.
She goes - Ugh, that’s what I was going to get you!
Hahahaha!

I like the feel of books too.

I will never swap my book shelves for a kindle!

The next generation will be like: ''books...what are they?''

Even the smell of a book is great

 

[Skarekrow]

I will never swap my book shelves for a kindle!

The next generation will be like: ''books...what are they?''

Even the smell of a book is great

Oh for sure!!
I even have some great old first editions, out of print books, and some signed copies of books as well.
You try to take them and we’ll have a problem..hahaha!

 

[muir]

Oh for sure!!
I even have some great old first editions, out of print books, and some signed copies of books as well.
You try to take them and we’ll have a problem..hahaha!

The books are going last

Take the car, take the house, take the shirt off my back

Me and my books...in a field

 

[Kgal]

@Kgal

This is so incredible!
(but not surprising)

Ever been in a forest and thought you heard whispering?
Maybe it wasn't in your head.

[video=youtube;iSGPNm3bFmQ]https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=iSGPNm3bFmQ[/video]​

This was so cool! The Mother Tree sends all of her energy to the other trees before she dies. Thank you for the video! I posted it on facebook.