Both at the same time. Mind is a pocket dimension where energy is used to virtualize.
Yeah I go on astral trips pretty regularly.
I couldn't actually see them directly, I remember a massive presence around my bedroom which was on the back of the house, and that feeling you get when somebody's standing right by you, staring at you, except it was like a thousand times amplified. I later started to envision them as Greys but I don't think these were actual Greys, but another being with a strong resemblance.
Some times definitely.
Contemplate and meditate half the time. Listen to music and goof around most of the other half lol.
I'd like to think I'm trying to use them positively.
Well I knew if I could talk to anyone about it, it would be you! I was right, right?
I think you are right! lol
I would never use intimate knowledge of someone, or even public knowledge of someone, and use it against them....it isn’t in my nature....I would just stop talking to you...you would no longer exist to me if you made me angry or wronged me somehow.
I have often thought the “greys” are ourselves from the future come back to figure our how our DNA got so fucked up....or maybe they are the ones fucking it up...or perhaps, as you received certain gifts, they are here to advance our DNA - who knows.
Anyhow, thanks for answering my questions! (btw, maybe Archon had hidden meanings in it, maybe it didn’t....but it was damn fun when it came out....lol.)
The reason I ask is because this is important to me. I sometimes wonder if I'm not pushing myself to the brink of insanity in my search for truth. I try to remain sceptical when I have thoughts similar in nature to what you describe.
I was very sick at one point in my life. On the critical list for over a month. When I recovered the doctors were sure there would be brain damage. They ran tests and the results came back negative. I was/am sure that there was brain damage, that the person I was before what happened died. That who you're speaking to is an entirely different entity from that before the age if 15. I still have his memories, but they .
A few years later I went through a period of fits and repeating nightmares of crucifixion. I was so sure these weren't just fits. They were more, something indescribable. Eventually they left as they came, with no known reason.
How do I know I'm not just delusional, that these thoughts aren't the result of a chemically imbalanced brain. You may not care, but this is one of the driving factors in my life. I need to know the truth about myself, about the nature of reality. However I can only see two possible ways this can lead. What I've described is the result of an overactive imagination and a psychiatric condition and I'm pushing myself to the brink of insanity. Or these thoughts are truth and eventually I'll see past all the falsities and gage upon that which is true. This will also inevitably lead to madness.
I've never really talked about this before, it just sounds so crazy. Alcohol has probably loosened my tongue tonight.
I don’t think you are crazy. (this goes to @
sprinkles too)
I had repetitive, frightening, vivid nightmares almost my whole childhood...it was like I posted before about lucid dreaming actually being in another dimension itself, or it being out of body. I now believe that I was out of body as a child...when the dreams first began it was always in my house...most of the time I would wander around the house, or I would go in the living room and try and talk to my parents who were watching TV late and they would never answer me. I do believe that house to be haunted...and I know that I ran into whatever it was several times...well, I believe there were two...one that stayed there most of the time and was not threatening nor really that frightening, and there was something else that would visit, or I attracted somehow? Anyhow, it has a name, which I won’t name, because I feel that even writing it here attracts it somehow....I did however look it up once, and to my surprise the name had a frightening definition.
Anyhow, it began infrequently, that I would run into the latter of the two, and it would rush at me....most of the time I would wake up screaming...then after a while, it was every single damn night. I would sleep on a foam mattress along side my parents bed a lot of nights....here is another reason why I think it was out of body too....wherever I slept that night, would be the starting point for me in my dream....there was usually no, jumping to one place or another. It wasn’t until I started to control aspects of my “dream” that I finally stopped them from occurring. For instance, it used to be incredibly difficult for me to run from (blank) in my “dream” like you were stuck in tar...I think a lot of people have experienced that....but if I concentrated, and pushed past the fear, gained control of myself, I could easy run back to myself in bed and wake up. That was another thing....I had to run back to my sleeping self.
As far as trauma goes...there is a direct correlation between childhood concussions and things like depression, etc., etc. so I’m sure what happened to you could reach beyond that.
I think though that there is a good possibility you glimpsed something out of the ordinary.
I continuously have “dreams" of an apocalyptic nature...each time I have one, it is incredibly vivid, and I can usually remember every detail.
There have been “dreams” that to me....are frightening in the fact that I just don’t see myself imagining what comes though....after a while I started to wonder - Are these other realities I’m seeing? If we are made of energy that cannot be destroyed, then perhaps our energies have witnessed the goings on, not just here on Earth, but other planets, other dimensions. (I’ve had “dreams” of the destruction of so many places...not just here, but otherworldly places too...”dreams” where bodies were in piles so high they almost hit the clouds) If quantum entanglement is true, then why can’t the energy that form our consciousness be entangled with somewhere or someWHEN else completely...and then those entangled elsewhere, so on, and so forth. If they are entangled, then it wouldn’t be like receiving a signal from far away where you could barely make out the picture...because they would exist in both places simultaneously. I have figured, that I tend to see these visions of destruction because they pulse with the most energy...quantum, emotional, or otherwise.
When I do become ‘aware’ or myself within “dreams” which seems to be more and more frequently as I grow older...there was a time between the childhood night terrors and now where I just had normal dreams, that I couldn’t control, where I wasn’t aware...but now I feel like I was meant to be in control....I think we were all meant to be in control...or at the very least ‘aware’.
Anyhow, if you’re crazy then I guess I am too....let’s all go start a really cool cult!
