Ooo....I can definitely see you taking on the symbol of the Tree as your totem for business.
I like the table because you brought out the grain from the tree in your design. But I wouldn't buy it with those upright trees attached down to the kick board/foot rest/stabilizer boards. Firstly - all I could envision was kids swinging their feet while trying to eat and kicking those beautiful trees. Secondly - I absolutely hate to dust and I can see dust layering itself amongst the branches of those trees.
Yes. I too have been crying and crying for many things known and unknown. Awww....efromm.... I know it sounds weird but I'm soooo glad to see you crying.
As I understand it - the continued Shift of the Earth into the 5D reality is causing all of our old deep seated darkness to come bubbling up to the surface so we can let go. We can let go of all of the old traumatic experiences and the pain and fear surrounding them. I admit I feel lighter and lighter....unburdened by my past as it were. You are walking that path too. I believe the more we offload our old crap the more room there is for new-ness. New ideas. New ways of being. New Joy!