anica

Oh yes, inner chaos always looks funny from the outside, doesn't it?

Hi Anica.
I was reading a post by you that came in my email from Tuesday and found where you had deleted it in your thread.
I just wanted to say that it was inspiring to me - to see you two living as richly as you both do. I admire the strength of purpose and desire you both put into your daily activities. Indeed that is what we're supposed to do on this world - to live our lives with presence and awareness. I try to do that every day and it's hard to do - isn't it? I really loved the line about making love like teenagers.

No that's what I was thinking you met. I haven't posted much since--though it is up. There is more too my friend. I'll PM you.

Which post is that dear? I've had a lot happening of late. Most of it positive.

how are you doing my friend? I'm doing well, hope you are the same.

Either way, I feel the same. *hugs*

Somehow I feel proud to be a human when I hear about stories like yours. It also gives me strength and inspiration to do the same if I need to.

I was just imagining a houseful of friends living together collectively.. sort of like a tribe.

You started a large household? Like a co-op? Because that's what I'm imagining.

Eerie! What else was she like?

Thank you, anica. *hugs* Five more days till the big day!

I hope you are keeping well.

No. No! I was agreeing, haha! I was so surprised to hear that from him that I also nearly fell out of my chair! I wasn't saying it like, "Hey, I already said that, think of something else to say!" No, I was shocked, too.

And yep. That is me in the awesome glasses. Though sad to say, I lost them at the beach last summer. I got them from a yard sale. Apparently they are so gaudy the lady selling the stuff laughed when she saw me with them and said, "I've been trying to get rid of those for a long time. You can just have them!" So now I hope somebody else finds them and treasures them as I did.

Aaah... I thought he still does that. My apologies
I couldn't understand completely the cause or effects of schizophrenia, or most of the psychological disorders for that matter* but that must be devastating; I'm glad he's alright and making great progress... still, too bad D:

Yup, personally speaking; looking behind I've been pretty door mat (hopefully I don't, now) to others-- it's been 2 years since my worst phase of being a doormat. I need to shed this "Welcome" tattoo of mine, but I seem to end up having a "Welcome" tattoo built on spikes.

*) Here, we don't really -treat- or -recognize- most psychological disorders except when they're going into Hollywood proportions D: It's related to the reason I want to leave, tho; it's quite long, I'll PM the complete list (at least the way I see it) to you xD

Wow, your sons have a very cool jobs Flying helicopter-- is he a pilot? And baking cakes XD it's awesome; the art of baking is pretty hard since it's mostly pure chemistry working, and I admire everyone who's able to create wonderful cakes (am pretty clumsy and clumsiness isn't a very good trait to have in the kitchen, is it?)

Yes; other people within different typology seems to be more able to go on with their lives better (...aside from, personal experience, INFP). I took it as a whiplash tho; even to the most doormat there's a point when they simply cannot -stand- it...and they start to "screw others, I'm going to take care of myself here and NOW!"

I consider it their shadow function influencing or taking over, within certain degree.

I want to leave Jakarta..well, mostly because the future here looks pretty grim, for many reasons xO

ah, anime is...simply put, Japanese cartoon; it's now grown into its own beast. It's quite recent; I'd reckon they entered Western mainstream only recently, and the same for my country.

They do? I didn't see it xD;

About Japanese, no, I can't, I have some interest and am trying to learn xD;

Thanks your understanding is very much appreciated
uuuh, I admit I'm not treating others as well as I treat myself; I ...somewhat believed it's necessary back then, but to continue doing that now would be unhealthy even to myself. And it's destructive, that kind of achievement...
*edited because of retrospective thought*

:) ah, thanks for accepting my request :) I can't express how much you have helped me; I'd been very unhelpful for myself and others.

as per my signature; I'm glad you liked it; it's an excerpt of a Japanese anime song;
[ame="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_bviPy2wyqA"]YouTube- Pocket o kara ni shite LIVE VERSION Sakamoto Maaya Magic Number[/ame]
http://www.animelyrics.com/anime/esca/tnepcket.htm
I personally find that part most fascinating and/or fitting to my feelings.

Thanks.

Thanks!!!!

Thank you. It was a lot of work, but I was inspired.