I hope you're doing well. You are a fount of strength and courage, I hope you recognize that in yourself, and as part of who you are. You're lovely. <3
Yup, exactly! By a weird coincedence (I was at my doctor's office when a pharmaceutical rep was offering free tests for caffeine intolerance), and I ended up finding out that in fact I do have a genetic abnormality that makes me unable to metabolize caffeine normally. So basically people with this problem, rather than getting a little energy boost and then peeing it out, keep the stuff circulating in their system and can't deal with it. A cup of decaf for me (which has like 3% the caffeine of a regular coffee) is sometimes tolerable to me. It can even cause psychosis and major mania in people who aren't aware they have the problem and keep drinking it! Here's another little article about it: http://www.geneplanet.com/genetic-analysis/list-of-analyses/caffeine-metabolism.html