PintoBean

Lol! Thanks Bean!

Thanks Pinto. Also, love the new profile pic!

Glad to hear that. Yeah... Also, there's always an option for adoption too. : )

Yeah. ^.^ It feels like the right decision, somehow it makes me feel so free and awesome (no kids ever = yay!), lol.

Give me a little bit of time and I will send you your PM reading...just got back from my arthritis infusion (yea!! finally got it...maybe my back won’t hurt so much now).
TTYS!

Thank you for the rep! :> That's reassuring to know.. Because I feel like everyone else wants kids someday in the future, except me. lol

Thanks for the reputation. I hope those 3 years weren't completely wasted though- it might come in handy in the future, even if it isn't job-related. Just like me with only 1 year of studying law, haha!

thankyou very much

Thank you for all the thumbs...I appreciate it.

Eh...getting by I suppose.
Feel like I’m stuck in limbo...I guess I’m being too impatient...or I guess I’m waiting for a response for my efforts from the universe that will never come...at least that’s how it seems sometimes.
But you don’t get a big “Good job!” or “Way to not die!” or some such nonsense.
I’m really trying...and I just feel like for every step I take something pushes me back over the bully crouched down behind me so they can watch me fall on my ass.
I don’t know what to do or where to go or how to feel good anymore...it’s so fleeting all the time.
Every drug I take to try and help just seems to eventually make things worse.
I feel lost for the moment...maybe I should try shock therapy (serious).
How do I fucking increase my dopamine and serotonin if I have such a difficult time exercising?
Most of these are rhetorical, don’t feel obligated for a long heart-felt response...sorry to lay that on you...I have my breaking points.

That's funny lol can't say I've ever had such an issue hehe

I figured you just painted them but all that prior talk about jaundice had me questioning it haha. Sounds like a cool color though. I'm pretty great! It's a lovely rainy day so my brain is so on right now. So on. Love it.

Ok I'll use AOP though cuz I'm lazy.

Thanks Pinto! Ms. Bean? Madam Pinto? :bowl:

And thank you kindly in return!

Yes, my 'wow' was in regards to the depth and rawness of your post. Such a trait assists others at least - helps them learn from your experiences. Also, openness begets openness, so such openness helps others be more open and helps create this place's atmosphere of openness and acceptance. Now that's triggered certain thoughts in the back of my mind... lol

emotions are huge things -- they take up a lot of space. I think we are mirrors -- reflections flashing brighter than the originating source. so of course it is harder for us. it's too much if we try to hold on. the curse of it is momentary but resounding. a lesson never to be unlearned. but it's ok. if we flow with it, the gift it brings is deepest understanding <3

your writing <3

Don't worry, the calf is so cute I can't hold a grudge against him!