All is fun and games until you've got to wake up and face reality the next day, huh? I think those are some noble goals, helping others. I think you would really benefit from doing some volunteer program, perhaps overseas, to expand your horizons a bit, get you out of the house, and get some valuable life experiences that will not only help you personally, but professionally as well. Especially if you're looking at Universities. Grades are important, of course, but if you can show them you're a well-rounded individual, they'll welcome you in with open arms... maybe with a scholarship too. Don't give up on that dream, coon.
As for me, well, stress has taken up permanent residence around here, so much so, that I don't even realize its there anymore. I've been pretty automatic with studying, with miniature little freak outs here and there. Caffeine and I have become very, very good friends throughout the whole ordeal