skippy64

I can't tolerate anything but death metal. I seriously can't. I mean the genres related to it (grindcore, powerviolence, and even some thrash/doom metal) are good, but I'm like a death metal addict. It's kind of sad.

Ah, you posted this on your wall

Well I hope you enjoy that book it's gave me some helpful advice when I really needed it, you can skip most of the quiz stuff at the beginning... not really sure why it's even there (guess it's informative?)

Things still well with you? Haven't heard from you in a while...

You getting self-righteous on me? : P

Just your normal address info, usually just street address: For example: 241 Jimmy Drive

If you don't have a P.O. box, company, or that other stuff you don't need to fill it out.

Do it, I have a feeling you'll enjoy having more reading in your life. It's paradise (for the mind); escape, adventure, and knowledge all in one place

I had a dream, you were in it...

and I killed you. Don't sleep with my wife anymore or it might happen again! : P

Oh, by the way... you ever check out that book? How goes the bible readings?

Yeah you are right about that too. And thanks for the compliment lol, I would say that same for you too. ^^ I think it's pretty nice that we're able to express both our silly kiddish sides and mature thoughtful sides as well.

Take your time finding yourself, don't jump into anything to suddenly... I've been doing a lot better personally, a lot more confidence since we last spoke. It helps me get by day to day, giving more greetings and compliments has given me more certainty in myself and others... and I hope I keep improving. If you're ever interested in reading a self-help book "Intimate Connections"... it's been very helpful for me as of recent (being "comfortable in my own skin" and all that).

Yes, gospel music can be very pretty...

I'm not really into it personally, but I can see why people would like it. I don't want to be hypocritical though... my beliefs are my beliefs; but yes it's very pleasant music. Music doesn't really change my "mood" much unless I'm already feeling down/depressed, it can of course make me a feel worse if I listen to depressing music. In general music gives me energy and creative ability, I enjoy it in many types/forms.

Hm dunno what to say to that. It makes me happy when people try not to blame their parents for their setbacks we all grow up with some setbacks, but I think we always have time to learn once we grow up. It's never too late to start cultivating new qualities in ourselves imo. I certainly wasted a lot of time being lazy when I could've been working on skills when I was younger too, and I wish that my parents would've pushed me more and allowed me to learn responsibility for myself too. So now, when I'm basically supposed to be an adult, I kind of just feel like I'm doing my best to fake it, if you know what I mean not really like being fake towards others, but I pretend to be able to schedule things and make appointments and look professional when deep down I don't feel that way. And I feel like if I don't keep up that act for people, I'll be judged harshly, and people won't trust me with responsibility, and I'll lose my autonomy somehow through that. Plus I am really sensitive to criticism about that, because a lot of people have judged me on it before from thinking that I only have a silly side to me. Sometimes in that way I feel like a child in an adults body. Especially because, literally, I've always looked like I was 18-25 even as a young teenager. A lot of people have always told me that, and so I've always been expected to act older than I was. On the flip side, sometimes I also feel like an adult in a child's body, because I feel like age doesn't always help to make people more mature or have more self-knowledge, even if it makes them more experienced.

Could be?

Start posting your music again, I demand more musical diversity!

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lol and i'm okay : ) not getting that addicted i think... so far, so good. how bout you?

LOL that's really cute. You must be glad to have kids like that in your life. It is hilarious now that you've explained it to me xD .. I've always wondered what the heck was up with your avatar ever since your first post, but figured you were just being mysterious and artsy or something xD
Haha what's so poor about the panda? It's relaxing in a hot spring I think
There's nothing meaningful about my bear avatars. I just like bears.

Hey btw skippy.. could you please explain your avatar to me?

Oh my gosh, me either! I live in Canada and practically have snowy mountains in my backyard, and I've never tried skiing or snowboarding and would love to do both (my mom was always really overprotective of me as a kid). We could go on a snowboarding adventure one day! ^0^ And yeah I think we would do great hanging out irl. Online communication sure changes aspects of normal interaction and makes people miss out on some important things. It's another reason I'm hesitant to spend too much time on here. :S
Some things you said about you shutting down sound famliar to me, though I'm not sure if I'm going through exactly what you described. Of course every person's situation is gonna be hard to tell between individuals, and it's probably gonna be at least a little different for everyone no matter what, obviously.

Mhm.. those are some pretty interesting observations about yourself. n_n I don't really like socializing with people either when I feel tired or otherwise crazy like you said...it's like I'm not as in control and I don't know what could come out of me? Is that how it is for you too? I feel like I have a lot of different "selfs" or "ego states" (something I read on wiki last night ), and I get kind of uncomfortable and confused when I notice changes inside myself. I think maybe I need to work more on understanding all these different parts of myself as a functioning whole person or something, and just get more comfortable with it.

I kind of disagree, being nice is different... but it's still good of course. I'm talking about being happy with who you are right now, not who you might be - or who you're going to be. It's brought me motivation, understanding, and confidence... more than anything else thus far.

Figured I'd just add, I've been reading a book called "Intimate Connections" it seems very helpful... for me anyway, if you get the chance you might want to take a look at it.

I'm not sure, I started moving downward... then things suddenly changed, everything made a lot more sense.

Sort of, but I think it's more than that - it's change in your perception of yourself (you really have to love/ be content with who you are). It's been coming together more and more for me now, I'm feeling much more confident/ comfortable in my own skin as a result.

Over the past few days a very basic idea has been slowly been burrowing its way into my mind; love yourself... it's that simple.

omg haha what a huge block of text