Light Yagami? I've got a crush on him too... and his notebook
I have a crush on L!!! *drools* why are manga characters so hot??
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justeccentric, I can completely relate! I LOVE THEM! Well, until...
Actually, if I count, from when I was about 10 to 20 I ALWAYS had a crush on someone (I got really infatuated with about maybe 15 guys during that period). The only way for me to forget one was to find another. I love the thrill you get from it, the roller coaster emotions... I was litterally addicted to them... It was a way for me to get high from life, really.
Because of that I had a few bad experiences - projecting things on whatever guy I fancied at the time, either to realize that reality was very different from my dreams, or scaring the guys away with emotional overdoses... Or just suffering from things that were not worth it, just because I was way too emotionally involved.
Now I've been in a long (=over 6 months) relationship for the first time in my life for nearly the past two years and at the same time I've been working very hard which never happened before, and so my energy has been going somewhere else (I also believe my hormones aren't working quite as intensely as they used to). But I kind of miss it. I'll catch myself half dreaming about someone else, not because I'm actually interested in them over my boyfriend, just because it feels nice.
I'm also scared of commitment. For the moment I blame it on my age, and I hope it's just that, but contrary to a lot of INFJs I don't long for a life-long love, I have this feeling I would miss out on so many other experiences if I was to find the right guy right now... To be honest my boyfriend is so great I almost wish I would have met him in 10 years... Sometimes I wonder if I have a problem