OK, I'll take a shot. It's a good thing my shadow attack ended over the weekend
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This could be totally off, so if it is, no problem, even knowing it is off will help:
Res and May
Sometimes I get this sense that you two are searching for something. I'm not sure what it is, but I am curious: is there something that you each are seeking, and if so can we help you find it?
ha, i love that you have grouped us together, i see it too, res and i are similar in some ways.
as for what i'm searching for? well, i guess i'm searching for the truth. for what really matters in life, because i've been fed so many lies over the course of my life that i don't know who or what to trust. i don't want to make the same mistakes as others, i want to do the best that i can, meet my own standards because they are correct, but in order to do that i'd have to define what correct is, and that is obviously not easy. so i ask, i question things, i want to define it down to the last detail so there are no chances of getting it wrong, and i want to do it asap, so i don't waste my life on this potentially futile task.
and if i could scrutinize res: darling, you hide too much of yourself in abstractions. you undervalue yourself too much. when i said people here have potential, one of the people who most clearly fit that sentiment would be you. i wonder sometimes what has happened to you to make you the way you are? constrained i mean. your earlier username was apt, you really are restrained, it's like you fear revealing too much of yourself lest others judge you negatively. maybe we all feel like that sometimes, but i'm telling you (as a distant friend, which i hope you can see me as) there's nothing for you to be ashamed of. maybe you don't know who you are, who you're supposed to be, whether you're supposed to be nice or not, hardworking or not, in a relationship or not, etc.etc. but that's ok, because neither does anyone else, really. you'll find out along the way.
be spontaneous. take risks. be yourself, more often, even if you don't know what that means. i think if you give yourself a little leeway you can truly surprise yourself and go very far.