John K
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I always enjoy your insight @John K thank you! I have much to ponder you're right, but I love all the incoming replies! <3
I hope what I posted made sense April - when I go back and read the things I've said in my comments they sometimes sound like they've been squeezed out through a toothpaste tube. I hope you can see some of what's behind my comment as well as the plain words! You have my love and best wishes for your journey.
I'll have to echo that, I really appreciate @John K, too, so insightful.
Also, I forgot to say thank you for posting that article about biphasic sleep, John, it was a good read.
I'm glad you picked up on this Deleted member 16771 because it gives me a chance to thank you so much for the sharing of your dark existential dread experience. I have had these too, starting when I was 8. They didn't resolve quickly like yours did but developed slowly over many years and left me in a solipsistic limbo that only partially resolved in my early 20s. With hindsight, I think it was my Ni ability to context shift into a parallel stable world view that kept me afloat. Even now my certainty in the external world is an act of faith and trust at heart. I've never met anyone before who has had a similar experience of the bottom following out of reality in the way you describe - there is a peculiar horror in it that is unmistakeable and it's a whole universe away from an intellectual philosophical perspective on reality.
I'm glad too that you found the sleep article interesting. I get quite annoyed sometimes when modern viewpoints become arrogant and assume we know better than people from other times. That article doesn't describe the sleep pattern you experience but it definitely breaks open the idea that there are other perfectly natural ways of doing things.