Fruiteloop
Community Member
- MBTI
- INFP
I really cannot say what functions I should have.
I know 100% I do not have Ti as a function.
I keep shifting between whether I have Ni or Ne
I might confuse Ni with Si
I do not often go back to my memories in that way (Si)
I know Ni is about symbolism, I saw a dream catcher and it brought up the idea.
But I do not always look externally for what Ne would do. Creating connections outside.
Ni there seems to be more connections inside. That I draw from in a quiet way.
If I am not INFP I am INTJ
I get ideas seemingly out of nowhere when I reflect on things.
But I do not build a consistent model on it the way Ti does.
INFP is more so about creating fantasy worlds where I try and make models externally.
It is only that Fi I can relate to as if I were having it in an Se way.
Fi and Si is more like this:
of which I am not sure that is what I am doing.
I know INTJ are seen as goal directed.
I have goals but I often cannot do them.
Sometime things matter to me and sometime they do not.
It all rather is about my ability to accomplish it.
And that depends on what I want at any given time.
Right now I want to make my own computer language but I need to understand kernels and CPU architectures.
Last time I tried to build a computer was at age 12 but gave up because I did not know enough and radio shack had the wrong transistors.
I kept thinking about it a long time as I never understood SIMD, finite element method or just physics engines in general.
I wanted to make a video game character that was actually that could think by itself. Most of the books at my library never told me how computers work.
So I guess I defaulted to being INFP functions because nothing worked for me.
Not math not computers or anything I could actually do.
I spent allot of time doing nothing and this had me reflect on things, my motivations and why I wanted things in the first place.
But this reflection made it so everything became ambiguous and I did not know what I wanted.
What I did was just try and think harder, but that did not work, so I did research and interacted with people more.
I had an identity crisis at age 20 so much so that I never really recovered.
Its been my hope to find something I can actually do because my ideas usually do not or cannot be explained in words or pictures.
Unlike Ti I cannot make everything orderly and flesh out everything that needs to be considered.
What I do then is just take notes when ever possible that I do not forget.
That is to say I make small diagrams that point me in the right direction.
Any fundamental idea I need them to move forward or become stuck.
So it is that I have hundreds of diagrams in note books and I collect on my computer.
That is why I might be INTJ and not INFP
It only makes sense that I have this behavior if I am a broken INTJ or a Male INFP that is just odd at being INFP.
In the past a computer once classified me as a 40 year old female INTJ - but I was a 30 year old male just writing my thoughts down.
I really do not know how male INFP are supposed to be other than that I might have been forced into Fi stuff a long time. And not Te stuff.
So in the end it really shows that Ni and Fi would work together in odd ways if it truly is the case that I am INTJ
Having said all this I would like to know what others think. I am 38 and might be heading towards another identity crisis. but a softer one.
I know 100% I do not have Ti as a function.
I keep shifting between whether I have Ni or Ne
I might confuse Ni with Si
I do not often go back to my memories in that way (Si)
I know Ni is about symbolism, I saw a dream catcher and it brought up the idea.
But I do not always look externally for what Ne would do. Creating connections outside.
Ni there seems to be more connections inside. That I draw from in a quiet way.
If I am not INFP I am INTJ
I get ideas seemingly out of nowhere when I reflect on things.
But I do not build a consistent model on it the way Ti does.
INFP is more so about creating fantasy worlds where I try and make models externally.
It is only that Fi I can relate to as if I were having it in an Se way.
Fi and Si is more like this:
of which I am not sure that is what I am doing.
I know INTJ are seen as goal directed.
I have goals but I often cannot do them.
Sometime things matter to me and sometime they do not.
It all rather is about my ability to accomplish it.
And that depends on what I want at any given time.
Right now I want to make my own computer language but I need to understand kernels and CPU architectures.
Last time I tried to build a computer was at age 12 but gave up because I did not know enough and radio shack had the wrong transistors.
I kept thinking about it a long time as I never understood SIMD, finite element method or just physics engines in general.
I wanted to make a video game character that was actually that could think by itself. Most of the books at my library never told me how computers work.
So I guess I defaulted to being INFP functions because nothing worked for me.
Not math not computers or anything I could actually do.
I spent allot of time doing nothing and this had me reflect on things, my motivations and why I wanted things in the first place.
But this reflection made it so everything became ambiguous and I did not know what I wanted.
What I did was just try and think harder, but that did not work, so I did research and interacted with people more.
I had an identity crisis at age 20 so much so that I never really recovered.
Its been my hope to find something I can actually do because my ideas usually do not or cannot be explained in words or pictures.
Unlike Ti I cannot make everything orderly and flesh out everything that needs to be considered.
What I do then is just take notes when ever possible that I do not forget.
That is to say I make small diagrams that point me in the right direction.
Any fundamental idea I need them to move forward or become stuck.
So it is that I have hundreds of diagrams in note books and I collect on my computer.
That is why I might be INTJ and not INFP
It only makes sense that I have this behavior if I am a broken INTJ or a Male INFP that is just odd at being INFP.
In the past a computer once classified me as a 40 year old female INTJ - but I was a 30 year old male just writing my thoughts down.
I really do not know how male INFP are supposed to be other than that I might have been forced into Fi stuff a long time. And not Te stuff.
So in the end it really shows that Ni and Fi would work together in odd ways if it truly is the case that I am INTJ
Having said all this I would like to know what others think. I am 38 and might be heading towards another identity crisis. but a softer one.
